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Falconer 96<br />
Considering the fact that the cock is the most critical link in our<br />
chain of survival, the variety of shapes, colors, sizes, characteristics,<br />
dispositions and responses found in this rudimentary tool are<br />
much greater than those shown by any other organ of the body.<br />
They were black, white, red, yellow, lavender, brown, warty,<br />
wrinkled, comely and silken, and they seemed, like any crowd of<br />
men on a street at closing time, to represent youth, age, victory,<br />
disaster, laughter and tears. There were the frenzied and<br />
compulsive pumpers, the long-timers who caressed themselves for<br />
half an hour, there were the groaners and the ones who sighed,<br />
and most of the men, when their trigger was pulled and the<br />
fusillade began, would shake, buck, catch their breath and make<br />
weeping sounds, sounds of grief, of joy, and sometimes death<br />
rattles. There was some rightness in having the images of the lovers<br />
around them opaque. They were universal, they were phantoms,<br />
and any skin sores, or signs of cruelty, ugliness, stupidity or<br />
beauty, could not be seen. Farragut went here regularly after Jody<br />
was gone.<br />
When Farragut arced or pumped his rocks into the trough he<br />
endured no true sadness—mostly some slight disenchantment at<br />
having spilled his energy onto iron. Walking away from the<br />
trough, he felt that he had missed the train, the plane, the boat. He<br />
had missed it. He experienced some marked physical relief or<br />
improvement: the shots cleared his brain. Shame and remorse had<br />
nothing to do with what he felt, walking away from the trough.<br />
What he felt, what he saw, was the utter poverty of erotic<br />
reasonableness. That was how he missed the target and the target<br />
was the mysteriousness of the bonded spirit and the flesh. He<br />
knew it well. Fitness and beauty had a rim. Fitness and beauty had<br />
a dimension, had a floor, even as the oceans have a floor, and he<br />
had committed a trespass. It was not unforgivable—a venal<br />
trespass—but he was reproached by the majesty of the realm. It<br />
was majestic; even in prison he knew the world to be majestic. He<br />
had taken a pebble out of his shoe in the middle of mass. He