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Falconer 163<br />
his grave was no more than the plain smell of canvas; the smell of<br />
some tent.<br />
The men who came to get him must have worn rubber soles<br />
because he didn’t hear them come in and didn’t know they were<br />
there until he felt himself being lifted up off the floor and carried.<br />
His breath had begun to wet the cloth of his shroud and his head<br />
had begun to ache. He opened his mouth very wide to breathe,<br />
afraid that they would hear the noise he made and more afraid<br />
that the stupid animalism of his carcass would panic and that he<br />
would convulse and yell and ask to be let out. Now the cloth was<br />
wet, the wetness strengthened the stink of rubber and his face was<br />
soaked and he was panting. Then the panic passed and he heard<br />
the opening and the closing of the first two gates and felt himself<br />
being carried down the slope of the tunnel. He had never, that he<br />
remembered, been carried before. (His long-dead mother must<br />
have carried him from place to place, but he could not remember<br />
this.) The sensation of being carried belonged to the past, since it<br />
gave him an unlikely feeling of innocence and purity. How strange<br />
to be carried so late in life and toward nothing that he truly knew,<br />
freed, it seemed, from his erotic crudeness, his facile scorn and his<br />
chagrined laugh—not a fact, but a chance, something like the<br />
afternoon light on high trees, quite useless and thrilling. How<br />
strange to be living and to be grown and to be carried.<br />
He felt the ground level off at the base of the tunnel near the<br />
delivery entrance and heard the guard at post number 8 say,<br />
“Another Indian bit the dust. What do you do with No Known<br />
Relatives or Concerned?” “NKRC’s get burned cheap,” said one of<br />
the carriers. Farragut heard the last prison bars open and close and<br />
felt the uneven footing of the drive. “Don’t drop him, for Christ’s<br />
sake,” said the first carrier. “For Christ’s sake don’t drop him.”<br />
“Look at that fucking moon, will you?” said the second carrier.<br />
“Will you look at that fucking moon?” They would be passing the<br />
main entrance then and going toward the gate. He felt himself<br />
being put down. “Where’s Charlie?” said the first carrier. “He said