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or days after the Ball, my mood careened from ecstatic to morose. I’d ash back to<br />
scenes with Pierre in the limousine, and I’d have to squeeze my legs together to<br />
contain my longing. Other times, I’d plummet, because the ip side of a fantasy is that<br />
despite how real it feels, and how fantastically it’s executed, it is not, in fact, real.<br />
Still, it was hard to resist poring over the society pages in the Times-Picayune, one of<br />
those New Orleans mainstays in a city that loved its benets and balls. There I was,<br />
photographed in the background, of course, because Pierre Castille was the focus of the<br />
evening. The caption described me as the “Cinderella Seductress” who “captivated the<br />
Bayou Bachelor.” This provided endless fodder even for Dell, who seemed more<br />
impatient with me than she was with Tracina.<br />
“Hey, Cinderella Seductress,” Dell teased, “any chance you could look after table ten<br />
for me? I got a prince picking me up tonight in a giant pumpkin. Pulling up right here<br />
on Frenchmen Street. Got any shoes I can borrow?”<br />
Tracina, on the other hand, had grown more subdued. She seemed withdrawn, though I<br />
often got the feeling she was coiling up, storing her venom until a future opportunity to<br />
sting me presented itself.<br />
I was admittedly occupied with thoughts of Pierre. When I met Matilda for one of our<br />
post-fantasy talks, I immediately asked about him: would I see him again? Had he asked<br />
about me? But before she opened her mouth, I already knew she’d advise against seeing<br />
him again for fear that I’d reignite something. Because by this time, we were both aware<br />
my body was drawn to men my mind knew were not necessarily right for me.<br />
“It’s not that he’s a bad man, Cassie,” she said. “He’s generous and intelligent. But he<br />
can also be dangerous to any woman who believes him to be capable of more intimacy<br />
than he is.”<br />
“If Pierre’s so dangerous, why did you recruit him?”<br />
“Because he was perfect for that particular fantasy. I was thrilled when he called me<br />
and said yes. We’ve been trying to recruit him for years. And I knew you wouldn’t be<br />
disappointed. Isn’t that the fantasy you wanted to experience?”<br />
“Yes, I did. But—”<br />
“No buts.”<br />
I nodded, on the brink of tears. Oh God, I thought, don’t cry. There’s nothing to cry about.<br />
It was just a little fling. Some sex, great sex, but that’s it. Yet the tears flowed.<br />
“Maybe I’m not cut out for this kind of thing,” I said, sniing. I looked around<br />
Tracey’s to see if any of the men, the ones watching the game on TV, the ones eating<br />
their po’ boy sandwiches, had noticed. None had.<br />
“Nonsense,” Matilda said, handing me a tissue. “Have your feelings—they’re normal<br />
ones. Pierre’s a powerful man. Any woman would swoon. To be honest, I was almost<br />
hoping he wouldn’t participate because there was a part of me that knew he’d have<br />
some kind of hold over you. But, Cassie, I can’t stress this enough. This is a fantasy, and