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T<br />
hree weeks after my near resignation, my Step Four card arrived the old-fashioned<br />
way, by mail. I took the stairs back up to my apartment two at a time, feeling as<br />
excited to see those envelopes as I did contemplating the fantasies. It was like getting an<br />
invitation to an amazing party every month. Thoughts of Jesse would creep in now and<br />
again, mostly leaving me marveling that S.E.C.R.E.T. had picked him, a tattooed pastry<br />
chef, as my “type.” But they were right. It made me realize that I’d chosen men, crushes,<br />
dates from such a narrow eld. But I didn’t regret my decision to stay in S.E.C.R.E.T. I<br />
was discovering too much about myself to stop now. Still, sometimes a memory of his<br />
arms, his wicked smile, would ash cross my mind and send a shiver through my whole<br />
body.<br />
I ripped open the manila envelope. The smaller, more ornate one slipped out. My Step<br />
Four card. The word Generosity was elegantly printed on the back. Inside was an<br />
invitation for a home-cooked meal at the Mansion on the second Friday of the month.<br />
The Mansion. A home-cooked meal. Generosity indeed! The dress code, however, seemed<br />
weirdly specic: Please wear black yoga pants, a plain white T-shirt, hair in a ponytail,<br />
sneakers, very little makeup. A part of me was a little disappointed that I’d be going to<br />
the Mansion but wouldn’t be allowed to wear something ultra-sexy or sophisticated. Oh<br />
well, at least I wouldn’t have to go shopping beforehand. And at least I would nally be<br />
going to the Mansion, this mythical place that had seized my imagination in both good<br />
and slightly scary ways.<br />
My thoughts were interrupted by a knock at the door. Will! I had promised him I<br />
would go with him to a restaurant supply auction in Metairie. We needed new trays,<br />
new chairs to replace the constantly fraying ones, and a sturdier prep table as ours had<br />
become mysteriously tippy. Will was also on the lookout for a dough mixer and a deepfryer<br />
so we could start making our own pastries and maybe even beignets. Normally he<br />
would have asked Tracina to go with him, but her ankle was still on the mend. She<br />
didn’t need crutches anymore, but she was nevertheless limping around the dining room,<br />
making Will feel guilty about the accident. She even jokingly suggested that had she not<br />
been dating him, she might have sued. I’m not sure she was kidding. I was to be Will’s<br />
substitute girlfriend for the day.<br />
“Be right there!” I yelled.<br />
I shoved the envelope into my folder, slipped the folder between my mattresses and<br />
raced to the door, interrupting Will’s second knock. He had on one of the shirts I loved<br />
best on him, a muted red button-up that Tracina had bought. As much as she bugged me,<br />
I had to admit she was getting him to dress a lot better, had even convinced him to cut<br />
his hair a bit shorter.<br />
“Hi! Right. Come in.”<br />
“I’m double-parked. Just come down when you’re ready. You didn’t hear my honking?”<br />
“Sorry, no, I was … vacuuming.”