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Frenchmen.<br />
Kit and Angela beamed at me like proud mothers. Then they raised their braceleted<br />
wrists at me and gave them a shake. I shook my charms back at them, the collective<br />
tinkling like music to my ears.<br />
The band started up. I could hear the MC announce this year’s Les Filles de Frenchmen<br />
Revue, reminding the men to “give generously” but to “behave respectfully or you’re out<br />
on your ass.”<br />
Angela yelled, “Hurry, Cassie, we’re on!”<br />
I took one last deep breath and looked around at my fellow performers, all of us<br />
beautiful in our own way, with our wigs and moles and falsies. Each of us was playing a<br />
version of ourselves, an exaggerated, alternative and riskier version. Maybe that’s what<br />
all women do, from time to time. Beneath our everyday costumes, we’re all lled with<br />
the same fears and anxieties. Angela must have them, and Kit too. But looking at them<br />
now, I couldn’t picture them hesitating at the red door of the coach house, frozen in fear.<br />
The feeling ooding my heart at this moment was gratitude, and some hope that if they<br />
were able to step through their fears, I could do it too. I just had to believe I could.<br />
I took my rst steps. I found the tempo, counting out the beats audibly, until the line<br />
forward-kicked in unison out of the wings and onto the stage, shaking our gloved hands<br />
like Fosse dancers. The crowd, darkened behind the bright oodlights, went crazy, which<br />
injected us with a kind of performance adrenaline that transferred from one girl to the<br />
next, hitting me full force.<br />
“See?” whispered Angela. “I told you they’d love you!”<br />
The rst few minutes of the dance were a blur as I adjusted my eyes to the lights and<br />
continued to remind myself that no one knew it was me, mousy Cassie from Café Rose.<br />
We broke o in our dance pairings onstage, my disguise making it easier to turn my<br />
back to the crowd and slowly bump back and forth, following Angela’s lead, as the snare<br />
drum beat in time to our choreographed gyrations. She was my partner and it was so<br />
thrilling to be boldly in tune with the raunchy music and the beautiful Angela Rejean<br />
that I began to relax into my body and improvise a little. At one point I was shaking my<br />
butt so fast it caused Angela to throw her head back and let out a whoop. When Angela<br />
turned and pranced o the stage right into the crowd, I followed her without thinking,<br />
mimicking the way she’d grab a tie and fling it behind a man’s head, or mess up his hair,<br />
and maybe his wife’s too. The women in the audience were having as much fun as the<br />
men, our exuberance inspiring them to stand and deliver their own shimmy to the<br />
enthusiastic crowd. Some of them were tourists, lucky to stumble upon this local<br />
celebration. But I recognized a lot of Café regulars, the musicians, shopkeepers and<br />
eccentrics out to cheer on this little pocket of beauty in our bruised and troubled city.<br />
Angela and I performed our choreographed kick-step for the crowd. Then she winked<br />
and whispered, “Go along with me, Cass,” before she spun, tossed her pink boa around<br />
my neck and yanked me into a full-on kiss.<br />
An explosion of clapping and yelling followed as Angela’s mouth lingered on mine,<br />
and then she nished the kiss with a ourish, nudging me back to my own space. My<br />
knees quivering, I tried to continue my choreographed two-step, showing o the garters