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I couldn’t make out his accent. Was it Spanish? He passed me a small cream-colored<br />
envelope. It had the letter C on the outside.<br />
I slid my nger under the ap and ripped it open. Inside was a card that read: Step<br />
One. My heart sped up. “What does the card say?” he asked.<br />
I looked up at this impossibly handsome man, this courier, or whatever he was, in<br />
front of me. “You want me to read it?”<br />
“Yes, you must.”<br />
“It says … ‘Surrender.’ ” My voice was barely audible.<br />
“You will be asked at the beginning of every fantasy if you accept this Step. Do you<br />
accept this Step?”<br />
I gulped.<br />
“Which Step?”<br />
“Step One, of course. Surrender. You must surrender to the fact that you need help.<br />
Sexually.”<br />
My God, he practically purred the word. He placed a hand under his T-shirt and<br />
touched his stomach while he leaned on the doorjamb and took me in with his eyes.<br />
“Do you?” he asked.<br />
I didn’t know it would all begin this quickly.<br />
“I … with you? Now?”<br />
“Do you accept the Step?” he asked, moving ever so slightly towards me.<br />
I could hardly speak. “What … what will happen?”<br />
“Nothing, unless you accept the Step.”<br />
His eyes, the way he was leaning …<br />
“I … yes. I do.”<br />
“Why don’t you clear a space for me right there,” he said, making a big circle with his<br />
hand and indicating the area between my living room and dining room. “I’ll be right<br />
back.” Then he turned around and left.<br />
I ran to my living room window and saw him heading to a limo that was parked<br />
outside.<br />
I placed my hand on my chest and glanced around my spotless living room, candles<br />
ickering everywhere. I was showered and scented. I was wearing a silk nightgown.<br />
They knew! I kicked the ottoman to the wall and shoved the couch closer to the coee<br />
table.<br />
The young man returned a minute or two later with what looked like a portable<br />
massage table.<br />
“Please go into the bedroom and take everything o, Cassie. Put this towel around<br />
you. I will call you when I’m ready.”<br />
I gathered Dixie on the way in. This was something my cat didn’t need to see. In my<br />
room I let my robe drop to the oor and took a last glance in my dresser mirror. My<br />
internal critic kicked in immediately. But this time I did something I had never done<br />
before. I shut it o. I waited, clenching and unclenching my sts. This can’t be real. This<br />
can’t be happening. But it is!<br />
“Please come in,” I heard from behind the closed door.