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“No. That’s my nal answer.” I dumped the tray of empty milk cartons into the trash<br />
to punctuate my decision.<br />
“Coward,” Will teased.<br />
“I’ll have you know, Mr. Foret, that I’ve done a few things this year that would set<br />
your teeth chattering. It just so happens that I know the limits of my courage. And that<br />
means not shaking my tits at a crowd of drunk men.”<br />
The night of the Revue, I was closing the Café for Tracina for the second time that<br />
week. At eight o’clock sharp, while turning over the chairs to do the mopping, I heard<br />
the dancers upstairs practicing one last time—a dozen graceful ponies set loose above<br />
my head. I could hear each “Fille” perform her individual routine for the group to<br />
raucous laughter, hooting and whistling. Those familiar feelings of loneliness and<br />
inferiority returned to me then, along with the thought that I’d be ridiculed if I ever<br />
attempted such a thing. At thirty-ve, almost thirty-six, I’d be the oldest dancer next to<br />
Steamboat Betty and Kit DeMarco. Kit was a bartender from the Spotted Cat, who at<br />
forty-one could still pull o a blue pixie hair-do and denim cutos. Steamboat Betty<br />
manned the antique cigarette booth at Snug Harbor and performed every year wearing<br />
the same burlesque outt she claimed to have worn for thirty-six years in a row, never<br />
failing to boast that it still—sort of—t her. Plus, there was no way I could dance next<br />
to Angela Rejean, a statuesque Haitian goddess who worked as a hostess at Maison and<br />
was a jazz singer on the side. Her body was so perfect that it made being jealous kind of<br />
pointless.<br />
After completing my shut-down duties, I headed upstairs to hand the keys to Kit, who<br />
had oered to lock up after they were done. The review didn’t start until after 10 p.m.<br />
The girls would rehearse up until the last minute, and in the meantime, I wanted to go<br />
home and shower o the day. I had hoped to see Will at the show, but earlier in the day,<br />
when I asked him if he and Tracina were going to attend the event, he had shrugged<br />
noncommittally.<br />
At the top of the stairs, I stepped past a new girl, with blond corkscrew curls, sitting<br />
cross-legged on the oor holding a hand-mirror. She was applying false eyelashes with<br />
expert precision. I couldn’t tell if her hair was a wig or real, but it was mesmerizing. A<br />
dozen more girls in various stages of undress were sitting or standing about, all getting<br />
ready for the big night, coats piled on the old mattress Will kept on the oor and<br />
sometimes slept on. Besides the mattress, the only other furniture up here was a broken<br />
wooden chair, which I’d sometimes nd Will straddling, lost in thought, his chin resting<br />
on the back. The Café was a big empty space, perfect for a temporary rehearsal room.<br />
We closed early, were only a few doors down from the Blue Nile, which was hosting the<br />
event this year, and the bathroom upstairs was brand-new, though still lacking a door.<br />
Several women, one topless, were craning around the bathroom mirror, taking turns<br />
applying stage makeup. Curling irons and hair straighteners were plugged in<br />
everywhere. Bright costumes, feather boas and masks added festivity to the usually dull,<br />
gray room.<br />
I found Kit, in a strapless bra and stockings, tapping out a dance sequence, her<br />
costume hanging on the exposed brick wall like a piece of art. She had had it specially