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“Well, that’s the first thing you’re putting on. My costume is second.”<br />
I gulped.<br />
Angela turned me around and launched me back upstairs. When she announced to the<br />
r e s t of the girls that I would be taking Kit’s place in the Revue, I expected<br />
disappointment or impatience. After all, I would bring the quality of the choreography<br />
to a grinding halt. Instead they all clapped and whistled, and positioned me in a line,<br />
then helpfully and slowly modeled the rst few steps of the routine. Kit, her back<br />
miraculously healed, became the ad hoc choreographer, snapping and counting in her<br />
bra and underwear. It was like the sleepover I had never been invited to, but with<br />
lingerie. When I messed up, no one scolded; they all laughed and made me feel like<br />
being an amateur would endear me to the crowd regardless of whether I would hinder<br />
their performance. Truth was, their generosity, genuine support and encouragement for<br />
this terrifying thing I was about to do brought tears to my eyes, which I was careful to<br />
stanch lest I smear my six layers of mascara Angela eventually applied. It took away<br />
some of the terror. Some.<br />
Two hours later, one spent learning the group’s routine and the other spent with Angela<br />
helping me come up with my own, I was backstage at the Blue Nile as the crowd of<br />
mostly men streamed in and gathered around the tippy tables in front. Between bouts of<br />
practicing, and deeply panicking, I got help from one of the girls in applying the nal<br />
touches, pressing on a fake mole, adjusting my stay-up shnets. Finally, Angela stood<br />
before me, Kit’s burlesque outt, white lace on black, draping from her ngers, the long<br />
pink ties trailing to the floor.<br />
“Okay, babe. One leg, then the other,” she said, as she shimmied the tight suit over my<br />
thighs. “Turn around, I’ll lace you up.”<br />
I turned, keeping one hand on my churning gut. I watched as the tighter Angela tied<br />
the ties, the higher my breasts swelled over the top of the scalloped bodice. That’s when<br />
Matilda ducked backstage, the sight of her taking the rest of the air out of my lungs. She<br />
smiled at Angela and threw open her arms.<br />
“You’re a champ, Angela!” she said, leaning in to whisper to her, “I think you’re<br />
almost ready to guide. Leave us alone for a bit, my dear.”<br />
Angela left, beaming. So she would be a S.E.C.R.E.T. guide soon. I wondered what that<br />
felt like.<br />
“Cassie, look at you!” said Matilda.<br />
“I feel like a sausage. I’m not sure this is such a good idea.”<br />
“Nonsense.” Matilda tugged me completely out of earshot of the other girls to give me<br />
some last-minute instructions.<br />
“Tonight, you’ll have your pick, Cassie.”<br />
“Pick of what?”<br />
“Of men.”<br />
“Which men?”<br />
“Men from your fantasies. The ones you’ve thought the most about over this past year.