Trinity

TRINITY & OTHER DOCTRINES OF GOD:
PROF. M. M. NINAN
Feelings are triggered unconsciously in every mammal and human being. What gets
triggered is a physical activation which again trigger fantasies and impulses. The
physical activation itself is wordless and thoughtless. It’s manifested in our stomach,
chest, shoulders, arms, hands, legs, genitals, feet, neck, and face.
Each feeling activates itself uniquely in the body. Anger is often described as a boiling
sensation in the chest, a red and hot face, clenching of the jaws and fists, activation in
the stomach, and an impulse to move the hands and feet. The feeling of anger is just
that: a physical activation, fantasies, and impulses. It’s not our thoughts! You can feel
the anger physically and sense the impulse to lash out, but it doesn’t mean the thought:
«Life is unfair! I wish everyone could behave as I want them to.». The content of the
thought is one thing, while the physical activation and the impulse are something
completely different. However, the majority of people confuse their physical feeling with
their thoughts.
The physical activation during the height of the feeling may become very intense.
Picture how a tiger reacts if someone tries to take its food. That situation is most likely
going to end in violence. We humans also have this ability to go from a relaxed state to
shaking murderous rage in a short time (and people that can’t intuit this «dark side»
within them are in denial). However, the intensity and fierceness of these feelings may
become too overwhelming for a young child (and for most adults also) if feelings aren’t
fully accepted in the original home environment.
If a child’s emotional experience is met with an attachment person’s anxiety or lack of
understanding then the child becomes «afraid» of his feelings. His ego will then invent
defense mechanisms to distract him from his anxiety. He may start to second-guess
himself, worry, rationalize, doubt his own feelings, or blame himself for the existence of
his feelings.
A child that negatively judges his own feelings and takes a position of shame will
perhaps think such things as: «A good boy doesn’t have feelings like this.», or «I must
be a bad boy since I feel like that.». Then he mistakenly labels his waves of feelings and
impulses as something he himself is personally responsible for, and as if he himself
made the feeling exist in the first place. He then takes personal responsibility for what
an unconscious part of him is responsible for. This often leads to further defense
mechanisms and psychological symptoms such as further self-blame, low self-esteem,
avoidance behavior, and passivity.
Our feelings are like waves that overtakes us but then runs out after a short while if
they’re not being met with any resistance. They have a beginning, a climax, and an
ending. You do not yourself control if your feelings are activated, however what you
actually do control is your willingness to experience their physical activation and
impulses while they exist in you.
The primate (human) brain • rational thought & spiritual values
This is the part of our mind that separates us from the rest of the animal kingdom. Our
ability to observe our stream of consciousness (the ego), our ability for abstract and
logical thinking, our ability to direct our attention, and our ability for moral thinking and
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