The Duchy of Jerald

I can’t control my emotions in difficult situations.
I must avoid dangerous or life-threatening situations.
If I do encounter such situations, I must worry about them to make them go away.
I must think, feel and act the same as I always have.
My past has such a strong influence on me that I cannot change.
I must find order, certainty, and predictability in life.
If I don’t find these things, I cannot feel comfortable or act competently.
I must depend on other people because I can’t depend on myself.
I must rely on superstition and religion especially in difficult times.
I must understand the secrets of the universe.
I cannot be happy unless I understand the nature and secrets of the universe.
I must rate myself as either “good” and “worthy,” or “bad” and “worthless.”
To be “good,” and “worthy,” I must be competent, successful and popular.
If I am not competent, successful or popular then I am “bad” and “worthless.”
I must never feel depressed, anxious or enraged.
Along with these self created vulnerabilities I have created the following emotional
consequences with these beliefs:
Depression
Anxiety and/or panic
Self Downing
And I have created the following behavioral consequences:
Risk-avoidance
Shyness
Procrastination
Unassertiveness
Workaholism
So. That’s fucked up.
Ok then. Better dispute that belief.
Is there any evidence that I am no good, and deserve to be tossed on the human junk pile
because I had a stroke and sustained physical losses of mobility income and shelter? (Which I am
perfectly capable of regaining?)