The Duchy of Jerald

Of course what we are talking about here, when we talk about the future, is death. That's our
future. So if there is something after we die, the evidence is, we will cope with it just fine.
Imperfectly and that's just fine. If there is nothing down that rabbit hole of potential satisfaction
then worrying about nothing seems a tad irrational.
I spoke to a social worker who wanted to know how I coped. She was afraid that I was in
'survival mode' and there will be some kind of crash. REBT teaches when something shitty
happens, do everything you can to deal with it, then ignore it. Seek something more satisfactory.
So, seeking worry seems like an odd choice. In fact, worry is always a choice and self
defeating. I know, it took 10 years of therapy to unlearn it, learned at my seriously mentally ill
mothers knee. Concern, on the other hand, is a choice and self helping. Motivating. I am VERY
concerned about my life right now, And I am trusting professionals to give me professional
advice. Everything from how to take a leak standing up (Thanks Richard) to where I am going to
live and pay for it. Basically I am so busy being concerned and dealing with my concerns I don't
have time to worry. Actually none of us do.
But the bright spot in all this is the return of my sense of metaphorical sometimes caustic but
always empathetic humour.
If it were the 18th century I would say I balanced the humours.