The Mountain Is You by Brianna Wiest

152 BRIANNA WIEST
You can, because you can use your mind to get attached.
You can fall in love with potential as opposed to reality. You
can orchestrate and choreograph dances of how you’ll live
out your days when things finally settle into their rightful
place. You can hinge on a fantasy life in which everything
you think you want has taken root in your everyday life.
But if it isn’t showing up, it’s just that—a fantasy. And
when we start to deeply believe in an illusion, it becomes a
delusion. And a delusion can be a really compelling thing.
The truth is that what is not right for you will never remain
with you. Though you might want to pretend that
you don’t know if this is the case, you do. You can feel it.
It’s why you have to grip so hard and with so little give.
The things that are right for you can be free from you. You
don’t have to convince them that they are right. You don’t
have to line up the evidence as though you’re pleading
your case.
Sometimes, we get lost in old dreams. We get lost in the
lives others wanted us to have. We get stuck on what we
thought we should be, what we assumed we would have.
We get derailed by all the ideas floating around our heads
about what it could be and should be if only things were
different, if only everything would click.
That’s why life gives us this kind of insurance. Sometimes,
it pulls away from us what is wrong for us when we are not
willing to see it for ourselves.