The Mountain Is You by Brianna Wiest

166 BRIANNA WIEST
But we cower, because it will be uncomfortable. It will not
immediately give us the virtues of what we are taught is
a worthwhile life: comfort and ease and the illusion that
everything is perfect on the surface.
Healing is not merely what makes us feel better the fastest.
It is building the right life, slowly and over time. It
is greeting ourselves at the reckoning, admitting where
we’ve faltered. It is going back and resolving our mistakes,
and going back within ourselves and resolving the anger
and fear and small-mindedness that got us there in the
first place.
Healing is refusing to tolerate the discomfort of change
because you refuse to tolerate mediocrity for one second
longer. The truth is that there is no way to escape discomfort;
it finds us wherever we are. But we are either going to
feel uneasy pushing past our self-imposed limits, breaking
boundaries and becoming who we dream of being, or we’re
going to feel it as we sit and mull over fears we fabricated
to justify why we refuse to stand up and begin.
Healing is going to be hard at first. It is going to mean
looking at yourself honestly, maybe for the first time ever.
It is going to mean stepping out of your comfort zone
so you can leap toward the person you want to be. It is
not what makes you more comfortable and idle. It is what
conditions you to be more motivated by discomfort than
you are scared of it, and inspired by your still moments
more than you use them to forge the chains of worry.