A CRITICAL BIOGRAPHY OF EDWIN JAMES BRADY - Mallacoota ...
A CRITICAL BIOGRAPHY OF EDWIN JAMES BRADY - Mallacoota ...
A CRITICAL BIOGRAPHY OF EDWIN JAMES BRADY - Mallacoota ...
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4<br />
After days had gone, days and nights of suggering for a child, it came that I<br />
was to die. Will you believe me that I knew that the time had come for me to<br />
die? Where is one room of all the rooms of my years that I remember best. In<br />
that room there is a table with a lamp burning, a couch and a bed. There are<br />
four people in the room – my father, my mother, the doctor and myself. My<br />
mother is kneeling; my father stands rigid, erect, outside the circle of<br />
lamplight. I sense his presence rather than see him there. Dr Eaton bends<br />
over the table. Very carefully he measuring something in a teaspoon, which<br />
he pours into my mouth, something that warms my lips… They all fade away<br />
and leave me on a strange road. I came again to that road fifty years later. It<br />
was the road going down into Chillagoe in Northern Queensland, through<br />
desert sandstone that reflects the burning heat of a tropical sun. In the<br />
country through which it winds stand strange monsters caarved out of solitary<br />
rocks, behemoths, mastodons – creatures of an unreal world. It is the haunted<br />
Land of Ulalume, which lies out of Space and out of Time. I know it well for I<br />
followed that grim road right to its Outward Border. All my life, as a<br />
consequence, I have suffered from a nervous apprehension, a recurring dread<br />
of impending calamity which requires some philosophy to overcome… 1<br />
The impressionable boy was greatly disturbed also by the orthodox religious ideas<br />
which were presented to him at an early age. The stage was set for confusion in this<br />
regard by the fact that his father came from a long line of Protestants, stretching back<br />
to the time or Henry the Eighth, while his mother came from an equally long line of<br />
Catholics. The doctrine of eternal damnation struck him suddenly and savagely, an<br />
effect heightened by a sense of personal guilt which occasioned a fear and dread<br />
lasting at least three years, destroying much of the joy natural to a growing country<br />
lad. He recalled making altars of sticks, modelled on pictures of Judaic pyres in The<br />
History of the Bible, upon which he sacrificed small birds, pledging life-long piety in<br />
exchange for absolution and for success in the hunt.<br />
His guilt was further increased under the impact of co-educational experience in the<br />
small bush school, the turning to “certain fascinating chapters” of the Old Testament,<br />
which awakened carnal emotions, and Shakespeare”s “Venus and Adonis”, all of<br />
which helped to introduce the neophyte to the world of sex-phantasy and<br />
experimentation – the very world of Hurtle Duffield. Brady hypothesised later that<br />
his guilt, in the rigid maternal morality of the world of his rearing, led to his early<br />
verse-writing as a method of sublimation. 2<br />
Brady’s accounts of his childhood fears – his dreams of malevolent green-eyed cats,<br />
of night-flying, of night-mares in which long-barrelled Winchesters continually bent<br />
and faced him in moments of crisis – all provide material of great interest to the<br />
sexually-oriented psychoanalyst, but to the casual observer there is an air of<br />
mysticism as well as an extraordinary revelatory quality. While Brady does not<br />
profess to understand all the emotional strains of childhood, he is unusually coherent<br />
and suggestive in retelling and describing them.<br />
He betrays a sensitive mind and a vivid pen in recalling some of the actual scenes of<br />
the countryside and people from these early times. They provide an interesting<br />
picture of a way of life since passed:<br />
1 Southerly No. 4 1952, pp. 194 - 5<br />
2 Note appended to Brady’s Juvenilia in Fryer Library