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Tales from <strong>the</strong> O<strong>the</strong>r Side <strong>of</strong> Language 111<br />
The kennel is urgent. “Please! Sahaya really needs to be<br />
with you! She is doing poorly with us this time. She’s not even<br />
eating <strong>the</strong> scrambled eggs and cheese we made special for <strong>her</strong>! We<br />
must bring <strong>her</strong> to you!” I’m weak, apprehensive, and look forward<br />
to seeing <strong>her</strong> anyway. I expect <strong>her</strong> to bound into <strong>the</strong> house, all<br />
wiggly-happy and relieved to see me.<br />
She barely looks at me. Her body is limp and so transparent I think I<br />
can see through <strong>her</strong>. Her gaze is elsew<strong>her</strong>e, not <strong>her</strong>e. I have a sinking feeling<br />
that she’s thinking whe<strong>the</strong>r to stay in this life or go.<br />
I wait a day for <strong>her</strong> to perk up, but she doesn’t. I’m impaired enough<br />
that I won’t drive. Friends take us to and from <strong>the</strong> vet. She is gravely ill with<br />
a rare blood disease. No reason. The vet gives a slim chance for <strong>her</strong> to live. I<br />
bank heavily on <strong>the</strong> chance, with high doses <strong>of</strong> steroids and s<strong>of</strong>t baby food<br />
to entice <strong>her</strong> to eat.<br />
Too weak to go up <strong>the</strong> stairs to sleep, she stays downstairs. I feel too<br />
frail to sleep downstairs to cuddle near <strong>her</strong>. She gains some stamina and<br />
labors to get up <strong>the</strong> four stairs to <strong>the</strong> first landing toward my room and lies<br />
<strong>the</strong>re looking pleased with <strong>her</strong>self. Two days later she manages <strong>her</strong> way up<br />
<strong>the</strong> next nine steps to <strong>the</strong> second landing, lies <strong>the</strong>re panting with <strong>the</strong> effort.<br />
I come out <strong>of</strong> my room one bright morning to find <strong>her</strong> all <strong>the</strong> way upstairs,<br />
lying in <strong>the</strong> hallway, wagging <strong>her</strong> tail as I come around <strong>the</strong> corner. With effort,<br />
she raises <strong>her</strong> head, looks at me, adoringly.<br />
I am shameless, fall down beside <strong>her</strong>, hug <strong>her</strong>, in tears, full <strong>of</strong> admiration.<br />
“I think that you knew for a long time that I was not well, even before I knew<br />
myself. You had no way to tell me... You were heartbroken with worry when<br />
I was away so long.”<br />
As I speak, <strong>the</strong> words ring true. I think back on <strong>the</strong> many times she<br />
was accurate in responding to trouble in my patients, sensing <strong>the</strong> meditation<br />
students, walking around <strong>the</strong> room and choosing <strong>the</strong> person to be with. It is<br />
no stretch for me to think that she has been trying to help me all this time.<br />
I’m moved by this dog and <strong>her</strong> devotion. In a sudden inspiration I tell