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Tales from <strong>the</strong> O<strong>the</strong>r Side <strong>of</strong> Language 35<br />
foreground <strong>of</strong> his words. It is a jumble. My brain spins and hurts. My old<br />
shyness augments <strong>the</strong> confusion, and I haven’t <strong>the</strong> endurance to push. Here<br />
in this pr<strong>of</strong>essional place my desires for connection are lost … so lost … in<br />
<strong>the</strong> crowd <strong>of</strong> talk…. My condition shuts me out.<br />
I look normal. No one notices <strong>the</strong> ravage inside, even those who know<br />
what has happened to me. I want to connect, go out this evening for dinner or<br />
<strong>the</strong>ater. I retreat, exhausted and disappointed, to my hotel room. I fall asleep<br />
at four in <strong>the</strong> afternoon, wake at ten, call room service for a sandwich and a<br />
beer, and return to deep sleep until <strong>the</strong> next day.<br />
After <strong>the</strong> closing morning session, I go to <strong>the</strong> <strong>National</strong> Gallery. Visually<br />
thirsty, I drink in every work <strong>of</strong> art in stunning detail, savoring it all. The<br />
patterns <strong>of</strong> color and form wash through my brain, washing out <strong>the</strong> fatigue<br />
and pain.<br />
My eyes revel in old Indian mandalas that I paid little attention to before,<br />
tracing through <strong>the</strong> vast detail <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong>ir stories. I move eagerly along centuries<br />
<strong>of</strong> painted visions. I stay for eight hours, lunch, <strong>the</strong>n dinner, barely noticing<br />
time. I have never before had this stamina in a museum.<br />
My brain eases more and more, <strong>the</strong>n becomes happy. I didn’t know that<br />
a brain could be happy! Watered, refreshed, with <strong>the</strong> sweet rain <strong>of</strong> so much<br />
beauty, my brain s<strong>of</strong>tly laps <strong>the</strong> shores <strong>of</strong> what is.