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STUDENT c I 115I ask students to show me Mu some seize my baton, others hold upa fm ger, still others embrace me, like this [embracing student].STUDENT: I know all that, but if I did it, it would be premeditated,not spontaneous.Rosm: That is true of course. When you actually experience Muyou will be able to respond spontaneously. But you must stop reasoningand just engross yourself in Mu.STUDENT: I understand that too, and I am trying to do it.I had a taste of Mu the other day when I shouted at the monitorfo r striking me when there was a "Do not strike" sign above me.ROSHI: That feeling ofMu was wonderful, wasn't it? At the momentyou shouted at him there was no duality, no awareness of yourselfor him-just the shout. But because that awareness was only partial,it disappeared. Had it been complete, it would have survived.Don't lose your grip on Mu no matter what happens. Strive on!* * *STUDENT: I have no particular questions to ask. All I want to sayis that I feel very dull today. My mind is fuzzy and I can't concentrateat all.ROSm: That's how it is with human beings. Sometimes our mindis sharp and clear, at other times dull and listless. The importantthing is not to let this worry or hamper you. Just continue with yourzazen resolutely.* * *ROSm: Still you haven't come to realization-! wonder why . • • •I have repeatedly told you to abandon reasoning, to stop analyzing,to give up all intellection. Free your mind of notions, belie&,assumptions. I hit you with my baton [striking student]. You cry"Ouch!" That "Ouch !" is the whole universe. What more is there?Is Mu different from that? If this were fire and you touched it, youwould also cry out and pull your hand away, wouldn't you? Mostpeople think of fire as something that provides heat, or as a process thatresults from combustion, and so fo rth. But fire is just fire, and whenyou bum yourself by it and yell "Ouch!" there is only "Ouch !"STUDENT:What am I lacking? You are enlightened and I am not.What is the difference between your touching fire and inine ?ROSm: No difference at all, absolutely none ! A verse in the