GGJ5b

Jakob Lorber – The Great Gospel of John, vol. 5, part B
[GGJ.05_273,08] At this he rose quickly and went out into the open. But he
did this only because he felt found out and ashamed.
[GGJ.05_273,09] The host asked Me how it could be that the disciple who
had gone out was not yet as perfect as the others.
[GGJ.05_273,10] I said, ―Dear friend, that comes from his occasional egoism!
He is a potter by profession and made a lot of money with it at the markets.
But when he heard about Me, then he came to Me, listened to My words and
saw My deeds. Then he asked to become My disciple. I allowed him this, and
so he became My disciple. But he is still what he was, a merchant, and he
considers money to be an indispensable thing for our earthly life; therefore he
would like to only perform miracles forever and actually only for himself and
be paid for it like the magicians. But since that can and may never go
together with My miracles, he lost through his own fault the capability he
already possessed and thus now constantly somewhat dissatisfied with
everything secretly to himself. But otherwise he knows about everything and
is a good speaker, and when he teaches anyone about Me and My mission
from heaven, his words always have a good effect, and therefore he is one
chosen apostle of My original seventy two disciples. Now you know
completely who he is and what you have to expect from him.‖
[GGJ.05_273,11] The host says, ―Ah, then he is still very much to be
respected, and I will discuss with him very often! But now I would indeed like
to know what happened to the other sixty disciples! Could they not
understand with sense and will in order to follow You, like these twelve, on all
the ways and paths, in order to hear and to see very much which would
certainly have been of the greatest use for them?‖
[GGJ.05_273,12] I said, ―They have heard and seen as much that they know
exactly what they have to do in order to achieve eternal life, and they do not
need anything further for now. They did not want to follow Me always and
everywhere because of their household situation, and so I released them for
the meantime; but they will come again and follow Me on all paths and ways
– for they have accepted My word, live and act now accordingly, and so they
now have a great desire to come to Me again. They are mainly Galileans like
I and these twelve disciples of Mine. – Now you know also the fullest truth;
but if you would like to know something else, then ask!‖
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[GGJ.05_274,01] The host said, ―I would like indeed to ask You about
something else; but You must not become angry with me about it!‖
[GGJ.05_274,02] I said, ―Ask whatever you want!‖
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