Student Life October 2019

EVERY DAY
IN MY LIFE
Did you know that we all have mental health?
Well I know I didn’t when I first found out
and it affects everyone differently. I started
to struggle when I moved up to high school.
I remember that in the summer holidays I
just got hit with the feeling of not having any
control over what comes next. That was 4
years ago but I still get that feeling every day.
My mental health stops me
from completing small tasks that
most people do automatically,
from talking to friends to paying
for things at shops.
Some days I just wish more than anything
that I could curl up in a ball and hide from
the world, but I know I can’t. Sometimes I feel
like I’m in the room but I’m looking from the
outside in. People say “just snap out of it” but
that’s so hard to do when it’s like there’s a
brick wall in your head that started with one
little piece but just keeps growing.
I have busy weeks with GCSE work and clubs.
I never get time to relax and recharge my
battery. Some days I feel like the world is
crumbling all around me and I have nothing
to turn to. However, the last year or so I’ve
been finding small ways to get out of that
cycle. Something I’ve relied on more than I
ever thought in the past is music. It’s been
such a big part for me because when I pick
up my hand me down guitar and strum its
strings, I get teleported away from everything
and everyone that’s swirling around in my
head like a whirlpool. I’ve found meeting up
with friends that know about how I’m feeling
is amazing because then I don’t have to
pretend I’m all okay when I’m not.
If you’re someone reading this and you don’t
know how to cope with everyday life I have
one piece of advice that someone I care
deeply about gave to me. Little steps make
the biggest difference. So don’t push yourself
to try to find the things that work for you
because they will come naturally when you
need them the most. I wish you all the best
and remember don’t ever give up fighting for
your heart.
58 • OCTOBER 2019 • STUDENT LIFE