Vanity. Ares

allusions more clear when he interrogated me
with the question: “You’re telling me you had
sexual relations and a relationship with this Myra
Rose and you had no idea that she was a
transgender?” I replied to him, and of course said,
no, and the subsequent raising of his eyebrows
seemed to deem my words as lies. He then asked
why I had done what I was admitting to, without
collusion, I said, provocation and he said, can you
elaborate; I did and told the inspector how I felt
and that I had been stressed about my
happenings, and to be specific I mentioned the
vegetable pizza — I thought a fat man as PC Josef
could understand the heartache of a vegetarian
pizza when in the belly of the beast of hunger. He
did not seem to agree with me as he then asked,
"Why six times?" he said. I said, I don’t know and
to this it seemed Connor was happy with my
answer, as his projected line of defence was to be
that it was a crime of passion; the delay in the
totality of the six stabs seemed to question this,
but of course I tried to explain that I was troubled
with the Burrito and I was distracted, but PC
Josef did not react, he just asked more questions
as the procedure went on. Yes, more questions
and more words, but I think I zoned out, as the
expansive nature of the procedure: moving from
room to room, filing in forms, thinking about
every word that left your mouth, all this exhausted
me— and that which lied ahead with the
inevitable trial, made me feel as if I could not go
on.
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