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Cosmic Fusion
Healing Wounds
Often the question is asked: “Where to begin” Such questions
may suggest a hesitation to enter the practice and face oneself. A
path opens at the very moment we start to walk. The inner journey
is different for all of us, as our histories are unique. The formulas
provide an essential guide, which tells us how to go about, which
direction to take, when to walk, when to rest and the stations (practices
and their sequences) we should visit.
As suggested earlier, the whole Taoist practice has its beginning
in the practice of the Inner Smile. The Inner Smile as the key
to refresh, create, transform, attract and blend energies presupposes
a basic willingness to enter into an adventure and to face
the risks in transforming old to new. It requires above all a willingness
to love oneself and self-compassion. Such an inner movement
towards the opening of the heart is however only possible if
there is some willingness to accept and forgive oneself.
Perhaps the primary key to any process of self-transformation
is the willingness to forgive oneself, as it opens the heart and sets
in motion and frees the flow of Chi, both from within and from
outside. That would seem a primary condition for an open space to
emerge in which one can enter into dialogue with the organs and
let them speak and listen to what they wish to say.
Yet forgiveness is not an act for once and for all but a primary
key in a continuous process of turning inward and practicing inner
observation. It is not surprising that when Jesus was asked a question
on forgiveness, he pointed to its key role by saying that a man
should forgive seventy times seven, meaning that it has no limit.
Rather than perceiving forgiveness as a virtue which make all other
virtues possible, like love and compassion, it is more useful to see
it in terms of a growth generated by process towards balance as a
whole between positive and negative emotions (Fusion of the Five
Elements) and as the fruit of the creative cycle (Cosmic Fusion).
The refusal or inability to forgive and thereby to love oneself and
others may be said to affect all the organs, affecting their chemistry
and inhibiting cooperation and balance. Frequently it is rooted in
a victim consciousness, which sets into motion negative emotions
which tend to reinforce each other. This victim consciousness often
has its roots in a presumption of betrayal as a result of which
the heart closes, as others are made accountable for one’s own
negativity and suffering.
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