Anni - The Perfect Wisdom Web

a d i c a l i s mIn late August, Anni received word from home thatHilde’s health had declined further. She shared this newswith the members of the community during a meeting,asking for prayers and advice. Eberhard Arnold, sayingthat he considered Hilde’s situation to be of “utmostinner concern” to the community, asked Anni to write toher family to again offer that a sister from the community,Alice Löffler, travel to Keilhau to provide help withnursing. This offer was not accepted, and Anni’s uncle, apastor, was sent to reason with her.d i a r ySeptember 4, 1932On August 31, Uncle Hugo Wächter came to visit me.He said he had heard from Frau Pastor Kuntze that Hildehad only a few weeks to live. And he hoped to impressme deeply by this news.I can hardly grasp it, it pursues and torments me dayand night. How will it be, how will it happen, if thisreally comes about? I don’t want to think about it, butit oppresses and torments and tortures me every timethe activities of daily work let up for a moment. Theresponsibility is so great and our strength is so small.My conscience is not yet fully justified through my faith.Faith is such a precious thing, and its complete authorityis constantly being interrupted by our doubt, our fear,our need. The truth of this bitter way grows plainer allthe time. And the hardships of the way often become so211