HUDSON TAYLOR The man who believed God by Marshall Broomhall

"THOU HAST PREY AILED"
II5
Some such exercise of soul seems almost inevitable
with finite man. It is the process by which he learns to
cast himself more fully upon God. It is the soul regaining
its poise as it advances one foot at a time. The cry,
"Who is sufficient for these things?" precedes the confidence,
"Our sufficiency is of God". The one leads to
the other, where faith is. And so, God who calls confirms.
To this end He told Moses His Name: I AM THAT
1 AM. And the Lord looked upon Gideon, and said: "Go
in this thy might ... have not I sent thee?" Again,
one of the seraphim touched the lips of Isaiah with a
live coal from off the altar; and the Lord said to Jeremiah:
"Say not, I am a child ... for I am with thee."
Hudson Taylor was treading the same path. He had
learned to trust God for himself; but to trust God for
others was a larger and more exacting undertaking.
"I had no doubt", he wrote, "that, if I prayed for workers
in the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ, they would be given
me. I had no doubt that, in answer to such prayer, the means
for our going forth would be provided, and that doors would
be opened before us in unreached parts of the Empire. But
I had not then learned to trust God for keeping power and
grace for myself, so no wonder that I could not trust Him
to keep others who might be prepared to go with me.
"I feared that in the midst of the dangers, difficulties, and
trials which would necessarily be connected with such a
work [and he knew how great these were], some who were
comparatively inexperienced Christians might break down,
and bitterly reproach me for having encouraged them to
undertake such an enterprise for which they were unequal.
"Yet, what was I to do? The feeling of blood-guiltiness
became more and more intense. Simply because I refused to
ask for them, the labourers did not come forward-did not
go out to China-and every day tens of thousands were
passing away into Christless graves! Perishing China so filled