HUDSON TAYLOR The man who believed God by Marshall Broomhall

PERPLEXED, BUT NOT IN DESPAIR 61
"I trust you will not deem it unkind or disrespectful of
me to write thus. For though I feel these things and feel
them keenly, were it not for the sake of others and the good
of the Society, I would pass them over in silence. To do this,
however, would be unfaithfulness on my part. For not only
is it morally wrong and thoughtless in the extreme to act as
the Society has acted towards Dr. Parker, but you must
surely see that men who can quadruple their salary by professional
practice, or double it by taking a clerk's berth,
will not be likely, if they find themselves totally unprovided
for, to continue in the service of the Society ....
"I may add that a vacant post at £200 a year, the whole
duties of which would not occupy two hours in the evening,
did look inviting to me at a time when I had been obliged to
incur a responsibility of £120 for rent, and a Resolution
upon my last lettet to the Committee informed me that
missionaries drawing more than was authorized would not
have their bills honoured by the Society.
"Now you cannot but see, I am sure, what evidence this
is of gross neglect. We do, at any rate. And while we both
cherish the warmest and most affectionate regard for many
members of the Committee personally, and especially for
the Secretaries, we cannot but feel the Society has acted ,
disgracefully."
In another letter, after referring again to the woeful
lack of business-like methods in the management of the
Society's affairs, and the folly of not allowing the workers
on the field discretion as to the day on which letters of
credit should be cashed, when the price of silver was
constantly undergoing rapid and great variations, he
concludes with the following words, almost of apology:
"If I have spoken too warmly, forgive me; and remember
I am only a weak brother, in pecuniary an:x:iety and embarrassment,
as well as in a position of greaf peril, entirely
isolated from Christian sympathy, comm~nion, and friendship;
and that these things and sickness, and spiritual conflict
with the adversary of souls, are at times almost more