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Be Not Afraid CourageIt was a Friday, and my husband, Barry, was working, soI had gone to my checkup alone. The doctor finished mysonogram, and asked me to take a chair. Nothing couldhave prepared me for what he had to say next: my babyhad a condition called anencephaly, which basicallymeant that he had no skull. The top half of his headwould be severely indented, and though he should haveno problem staying alive in my womb, he would notsurvive birth for more than about forty-eight hours.I was in shock. I had had two miscarriages, but theywere so early on in pregnancy that there wasn’t muchmore to see than a sac. This was different. I could seethis baby on the sonogram as a real, already-developedperson.I wept all the way home. I thought of the OldTestament story of how God had commanded Abrahamto sacrifice his son Isaac. Not that I would be killing mychild. But I would have to let go of him and give him upto God.It was the hardest thing I had ever had to deal with,and I couldn’t stop asking why. God knew I had lovedand welcomed each child he had given me. Why was hedoing this to me?As time went on, however, Ramona spent less timetrying to find an answer to that question. Even if she’d1