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- Page 4 and 5: JOURNEY BACK TO EDENMy Life and Tim
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- Page 10 and 11: PREFACEWhile in Egypt, I did not in
- Page 12 and 13: PREFACExiElia, to whom this journal
- Page 14 and 15: ABOUT THE COPTS AND THEIR DESERT MO
- Page 17 and 18: 2 INTRODUCTIONI will be traveling i
- Page 19 and 20: 4 INTRODUCTIONmy novitiate and had
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- Page 23 and 24: 8 SEPTEMBERprior to their trip so t
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- Page 27 and 28: 12 SEPTEMBERA Beggar among BeggarsT
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- Page 31 and 32: FATHER JOHN WATSONHis Holiness Pope
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- Page 35 and 36: 20 SEPTEMBERBlessed Lord,You brough
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- Page 39 and 40: OCTOBERA TIME OF NEW BEGINNINGSThe
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- Page 47 and 48: NOVEMBERA TIME TO VISIT ABRAHAMGues
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42 NOVEMBERto take his son. All the
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44 NOVEMBERhe sojourned in Egypt in
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46 NOVEMBERthe monastic ideal to a
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48 NOVEMBERArabic LessonsNOVEMBER 2
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50 NOVEMBEROf course, it is not tru
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52 NOVEMBERthe Ark of Noah looked l
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54 NOVEMBERits life-giving water fr
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56 NOVEMBERCross more brightly: fal
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DECEMBERA TIME OF SIGNS: CAELUM ET
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60 DECEMBERfirst sold ourselves to
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62 DECEMBERis by fasting, most of a
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64 DECEMBERficient. If they can obt
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66 DECEMBERThe great apparitions of
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68 DECEMBERKing of the Jews, by the
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70 DECEMBEREveryone seeks the assis
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72 DECEMBERDECEMBER 15, MONDAYAlmos
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74 DECEMBERfor her. She is delighte
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76 DECEMBERtween Alexandria and Cai
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78 DECEMBERboth are real in the bod
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80 DECEMBERof faith which preserves
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82 DECEMBERI feel particularly sorr
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84 DECEMBERThe children—six, seve
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JANUARYA TIME OF CELEBRATIONJANUARY
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88 JANUARYEveryone, it seems, is mi
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90 JANUARYA Holiday VisitOn the eve
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92 JANUARYAlmost the whole orientat
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94 JANUARYI blessed water in their
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96 JANUARYI find myself in the unus
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98 JANUARYferent path, and every da
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100 JANUARYyour ageless love are cr
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102 JANUARYless because they’re a
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FATHER JOHN WATSONA Coptic Orthodox
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106 JANUARYheard a voice—perhaps
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108 JANUARYI reflected afterwards a
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110 JANUARYsolitude and in terms of
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112 FEBRUARYjust visiting the deser
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114 FEBRUARYJust then some of the p
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116 FEBRUARYThe children of the Pha
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118 FEBRUARYAbuna Elia said that th
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120 FEBRUARYGod. For all Christians
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122 FEBRUARYFEBRUARY 18, WEDNESDAYD
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124 FEBRUARYsources. I had some of
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126 FEBRUARYshall be a sign and a w
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128 FEBRUARYFEBRUARY 28, SATURDAYTh
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130 MARCHmerich, the German mystic
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132 MARCHThe wildflower meadows her
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134 MARCHbishop who resides near he
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136 MARCHOf Building Bonds and Brea
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138 MARCHSprings in the DesertMARCH
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140 MARCHwomen in the West experien
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142 MARCHlunch somewhere, or they h
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144 MARCHbe willing to move from my
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146 MARCHA Fly on the WallMARCH 31,
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APRILA TIME OF CONSECRATIONOf Sands
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Grass mats cover the floor of a mon
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152 APRILmony. Even recently, some
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154 APRILwho are distributed everyw
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156 APRILIn the papal compound I me
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158 APRILin their own home parish.
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160 APRILAfter greeting me he told
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162 APRILI keep reminding myself th
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164 APRILA Rare Spring HolidayAPRIL
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166 APRILthat the very same innocen
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MAYA TIME TO PRESS ONWARDOases and
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170 MAYthe commotion associated wit
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172 MAYeven saw monks trying to get
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174 MAYNevertheless, I ask you to a
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176 MAYof grace that people can enf
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178 MAYI’m staying at the house o
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180 JUNEThe Cave of a SaintJUNE 5,
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182 JUNEThe abbot of the monastery
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The gate of St. Anthony Monastery.
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186 JUNEno place to lay his head”
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188 JUNE“Fountains and Springs, B
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190 JUNEmonks here, I decided to dr
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192 JUNEof his family—and broke e
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JULYA TIME FOR FAREWELLSThe Crucibl
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196 JULYare known in Egypt, and the
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198 JULYthat, the heat is now reall
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200 JULYbering the slap I received
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202 JULYyou for our founder who cam
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204 JULYJULY 23, THURSDAYI returned
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206 JULYprize that Eve forfeited wh
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AFTERWORDFifteen years have passed