The Expedition of Humphry Clinker

16 TOBIAS SMOLLETT
feelings of my heart—even then you did not check my presumption
—you pitied my sufferings, and gave me leave to hope—you put
a favourable—perhaps too favourable a construction, on my
appearance—certain it is, I am no player in love—I speak the
language of my own heart; and have no prompter but nature.—Yet
there is something in this heart, which I have not yet disclosed—
I flattered myself—But, I will not—I must not proceed—Dear
Miss Liddy! for Heaven’s sake, contrive, if possible, some means
of letting me speak to you before you leave Gloucester; otherwise,
I know not what will—But I begin to rave again—I will endeavour
to bear this trial with fortitude—while I am capable of reflecting
upon your tenderness and truth, I surely have no cause to despair—
yet I am strangely affected. The sun seems to deny me light—a
cloud hangs over me, and there is a dreadful weight upon my
spirits! While you stay in this place, I shall continually hover about
your lodgings, as the parted soul is said to linger about the grave
where its mortal consort lies.—I know, if it is in your power, you
will task your humanity—your compassion—shall I add, your
affection?—in order to assuage the almost intolerable disquiet that
torments the heart of your afflicted,
Gloucester, March 31. WILSON
To Sir WATKIN PHILLIPS, of Jesus college, Oxon.
Hot-well, April 18
DEAR PHILLIPS,
I GIVE Mansel credit for his invention, in propagating the report
that I had a quarrel with a mountebank’s merry Andrew at Gloucester:
but I have too much respect for every appendage of wit, to
quarrel even with the lowest buffoonery; and therefore I hope
Mansel and I shall always be good friends. I cannot, however, approve
of his drowning my poor dog Ponto, on purpose to convert
Ovid’s pleonasm into a punning epitaph.—deerant quoque Littora
Ponto; for, that he threw him into the Isis, when it was so high and
impetuous, with no other view than to kill the fleas, is an excuse
that will not hold water—But I leave poor Ponto to his fate, and
hope Providence will take care to accommodate Mansel with a drier
death.