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Scott is a self-employed IT consult
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My heart thudding in my chest, I st
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how he’d got home, but it wasn’
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Road, just a few doors along from y
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We all sat down and nobody said any
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Riley and Gaskill exchanged a look,
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less traumatic than the surgical on
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“Mrs. Watson?”“Yes. Mrs. Wats
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I shrugged. “I already told you,
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Megan. I realize that perhaps, afte
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missing from her home since Saturda
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eyes on me; I just want to hide, to
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It comes from shared experience, fr
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RACHEL• • •FRIDAY, JULY 19, 2
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excitement, the adrenaline. I’m b
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SATURDAY, JULY 20, 2013MORNINGI nev
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She took the child from me and I tr
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there were someone else in the room
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Everyone told me I was insane to ag
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RACHEL• • •SUNDAY, JULY 21, 2
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out, filling the space between us,
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I felt wretched then. I wasn’t he
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The man was standing next to a colo
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Why do you go running to him whenev
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“But you came to the house. Megan
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that time of the morning, and that
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into the doorway, my hand raised. I
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“I can’t, Scott, it’s too lat
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RACHEL• • •MONDAY, JULY 22, 2
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ANNA• • •MONDAY, JULY 22, 201
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I think we do need to. I can’t st
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killer, but appearances can be dece
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think. I keep trying to grasp at it
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MORNINGI am no longer travelling to
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“Are you accusing Anna of hurting
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curtains drawn. There is nothing to
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“I know that. But they seem to bu
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THURSDAY, AUGUST 1, 2013MORNINGTher
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television again. The same pictures
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And yet just a few months ago, I wa
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“After I left Ipswich, I moved in
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It’s darker still, I’m sure of
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RACHEL• • •SATURDAY, AUGUST 3
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There’s a brief mention of Kamal,
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head was straight . . . but there i
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Hipwells’ house, and she said it
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voice of a busy, confident man with
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of colour appear on his cheeks. “
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know that I had a cut on my head, a
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It wasn’t what I expected.By the
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“I’m not.”“All right. OK. C
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been drinking all afternoon, workin
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ANNA• • •WEDNESDAY, AUGUST 7,
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now I have to see not only Rachel,
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I hover, unsure whether to speak or
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How the tabloids got hold of that s
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I will give something of myself. Th
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and I’m not sure that I like her
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face. I gave her to him and ran. I
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grieving. He left you on your own i
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they were writing about her, the im
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ANNA• • •SATURDAY, AUGUST 10,
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there in the car park and I was thi
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look, and it seems to me that I’v
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fades. “Focusing on senses other
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I remember that. On that Saturday n
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looked, how blotchy and bedraggled
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MORNINGIn bed, his hands on my hips
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met in a crappy coffee shop in Ashb
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once suspecting that there was no m
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she?” The smile is slipping from
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shoulders and he’s gripping them
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FRIDAY, AUGUST 16, 2013MORNINGI’v
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The matter should be closed for me
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Finally, after about three tours of
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you were a total mess. Why is this
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ANNA• • •SATURDAY, AUGUST 17,
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Maybe he just thought, sod it, and
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SUNDAY, AUGUST 18, 2013EARLY MORNIN
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the rank, stale air, I may have bee
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“I think I’m going to have a co
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ANNA• • •SUNDAY, AUGUST 18, 2
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She swallows, bites her lip hard.
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Rachel sighs and gets to her feet.
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I called Kamal just after six. The
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My hand is against his chest and I
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throat, he leaned harder, harder, s
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past him and start to run downstair
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RACHEL• • •SUNDAY, AUGUST 18,
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“Anna! What does she mean? There
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Without warning, Anna jumps to her
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He’s not laughing anymore.He’s
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The child starts to wail suddenly a
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neglected . . . Christ, she just wo
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to bottom right. I don’t know. I
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managed to take the weapon from him
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When I reach the harbour, I turn le
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ACKNOWLEDGMENTSMany people have hel