Luang Por Liem: The Ways of the Peaceful - Wat Pah Nanachat
Luang Por Liem: The Ways of the Peaceful - Wat Pah Nanachat
Luang Por Liem: The Ways of the Peaceful - Wat Pah Nanachat
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So, if we experience both sukha and dukkha in our practice,<br />
this is not a problem. We just need to try and not be negligent.<br />
<strong>The</strong>re will always be a bit <strong>of</strong> sukha here and a bit <strong>of</strong> dukkha <strong>the</strong>re.<br />
This is what I experienced. Thinking about myself, when I was<br />
new to <strong>the</strong> principles <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> life in <strong>the</strong> yellow robes, I didn’t know<br />
anything. I didn’t come with <strong>the</strong> expectation to take on this<br />
lifestyle for all my life, ei<strong>the</strong>r. I thought I would ordain merely to<br />
follow <strong>the</strong> tradition <strong>of</strong> young men in Thailand to ordain<br />
temporarily at least once in <strong>the</strong>ir life. I came to have a look,<br />
because people say that it’s good to try becoming a monk. But<br />
even after I had tested <strong>the</strong> monk’s life and decided to stay, I kept<br />
drifting back towards my old ways <strong>of</strong> living in many situations.<br />
Actually I was still a layperson, although now I was part <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong><br />
class <strong>of</strong> monastics. Living under <strong>the</strong> shade <strong>of</strong> <strong>the</strong> yellow robe, I<br />
had become an object <strong>of</strong> reverence for ordinary people, but I still<br />
had <strong>the</strong> thoughts <strong>of</strong> a layperson, and everything kept being<br />
influenced by this. I still had dirty thoughts – but at least <strong>the</strong>y<br />
were only thoughts.<br />
<strong>The</strong>re are <strong>the</strong>se thoughts and feelings, and one can’t just say,<br />
“stop” and erase <strong>the</strong>m all at once. It takes four or five years until<br />
one acquires new habits. Until <strong>the</strong>n, one needs to live with dust in<br />
one’s eyes, always craving under <strong>the</strong> power <strong>of</strong> sensual desires.<br />
<strong>The</strong> eyes seeing a form is sensual desire, <strong>the</strong> ear hearing a sound,<br />
<strong>the</strong> nose smelling an odour, <strong>the</strong> tongue tasting a flavour – all <strong>the</strong>se<br />
are sensual desires. It feels like one is clouded by <strong>the</strong><br />
impingements <strong>of</strong> sensuality, and <strong>the</strong>re is nothing that could clear<br />
up or lighten <strong>the</strong> situation. But, I thought, one has to try anyway.<br />
When o<strong>the</strong>rs bowed to me or paid respects, I didn’t pretend that<br />
<strong>the</strong>re was anything especially good about me. Ra<strong>the</strong>r, I felt that I<br />
lacked <strong>the</strong> merit to be able to pay people back for all <strong>the</strong>ir<br />
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