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it were a fast rewind of the recording of karmic activity. Once one's karma was rewound a state of original innocence would naturally flower.<br />
Lying in our hammocks, we set out to meditate our way into hyperspace. In my mind's eye, I could see myself at La Chorrera and then going<br />
down the trail to El Encanto, up the river to Leguizamo and back to Bogota, back to Canada. At each point I would meet the people that I had<br />
lived my life with and I would say, "We got it! I'm sorry. I hope I didn't offend you too much back in 3-D. It's all over now. Just all over."<br />
I could see people. Immediately, I reached out for all of them. "We're on the Amazon," I explained to each. "And now we are going home. Or<br />
some place." The vision had an utterly bizarre, real<br />
quality. Tears welled up behind my closed eyelids. It was very peculiar.<br />
The voice of the teacher spoke in my mind. "You've found it. This is it. It's all over now. There is no more. Within a few hours, the<br />
superstructure of earthbound, human civilization is going to collapse and your species will depart. First you will go to Jupiter and then to<br />
Alpha in Sagittarius. A day of high adventure dawns at last for the human beings."<br />
At first the images seemed to be deepening and growing more intense, but after an hour it was clear that they were actually fading. One by one<br />
we pulled ourselves out of the stupor that the morning heat and being in our hammocks had induced. We began talking and talking, analyzing<br />
and analyzing. Dennis seemed the most out of it. Dave and Vanessa were uncertain that anything at all had "really" happened. Ev was distant,<br />
and I was feeling definitely stoned and immersed in the surreal perception that had been mine since the chaotic opening of the day.<br />
Then I realized that something was wrong. Apprehension was outrunning reality, as it always does. For everyone else, nothing had happened.<br />
As we talked, it came out that no one could hear Dennis in their mind except me. And actually, they were all wondering what was going on,<br />
growing more alarmed as they couldn't help but conclude that I was losing my mind. We were entering what I later came to view as the next<br />
phase, which was a period of confusion for all. Dennis was definitely disengaged from reality. I would talk to him and he wouldn't know he<br />
was being spoken to. He broke into conversations because he didn't know anyone else was speaking. As the gulf between our perceptions<br />
became clear, we all felt the need to return to normal, to touch the basics; a visit to the priest's outdoor shower was suggested and seized upon,<br />
since we were all filthy and covered with the grime of the night's fire tending.<br />
We gathered up our scattered clothing. During this effort, we discovered that Dennis had thrown his glasses away along with his boots and<br />
everything else. Disheveled and disoriented, we retraced the path to the mission, searching unsuccessfully for the lost pair of glasses.<br />
A group of Witoto gazed at us as we passed and then roared with appreciative laughter. "They know. They know what has been<br />
done," the voice in my head assured me. They were certainly beaming and chortling about something. On we walked toward the mission and<br />
its shower in the sunshine.<br />
Dennis wouldn't stop talking, and it was really no longer possible to communicate with him. Consensus among the others was building that we<br />
had a crisis on our hands, but it wasn't out of control yet. I agreed with them that ayahuasca was very peculiar, and they thought that the<br />
passage of a few hours would smooth everything out. My conclusion was that something real and unanticipated had happened, that Dennis<br />
had done something, and that some kind of odd pharmacological effect had been unwittingly manipulated. But the effect had behaved only in<br />
part as we had expected, and so we were cast we knew not where. I was calm and could at least participate in the social situation. Though I<br />
was moved by emotions that sent tears of joy streaming down my face, I wasn't out of touch with reality.<br />
"We'll wait for tomorrow. Dennis will come down," I tried to reassure the rest of the group.<br />
Everyone seemed to be finding their way back to their normal psychic equilibrium save Dennis and myself. While I was burdened with odd<br />
but wonderfully expanded perceptions, his wandering ideas and wild eyes indicated that he was having real difficulty getting his feet on the<br />
ground. After our shower, on the way back to the forest, I mentioned all of these things to him, but acting as sly as Hamlet in his madness, he<br />
replied in riddles and with the mimicry of dead relatives. I could get nothing out of him; I continued to assume that a night's sleep would set<br />
him right. When we returned to camp, I insisted that he lie down, which he did.<br />
"Now can we call the press conference?" he inquired from his hammock, as the rest of us moved about trying to reestablish order.<br />
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