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we are in our bodies and our historical milieus, to be somehow the expression of the final purpose of things.
The timewave predicted its own end within our lifetimes; actually only a decade after the turn of the century, a time of such novelty that
beyond it there could be nothing less than the end of time itself. This was the most puzzling of all, more puzzling than its personal,
idiosyncratic side, this implicit "end of time": a period when a transition of regimes would take place that would completely transform the
modalities of reality.
I was familiar with the idea of eschatology—the end of time— in a religious context, but it had never before occurred to me that regimes in
nature might undergo sudden shifts that would reshuffle natural laws. There is nothing against it really. It is simply that science, in order to
function, must assume that physical laws are not dependent on the time and the context in which they are tested. If this were not so, the idea of
the experiment would have no meaning, since experiments performed at different times might then give different results.
For years I continued to elaborate this theory and to clarify my own understanding of the theory-forming enterprise generally. I succeeded
finally in 1974 in achieving a completely formal, mathematical quantification of the fractal structure that I had unearthed inside the structure
of the / Ching. Throughout the eighties I worked, first with Peter Broadwell and then with Peter Meyer, to create personal computer software,
which I called Timewave Zero, that allowed careful study of this wave. The computer is a powerful tool that made it possible to greatly refine
my notions of what constituted proof or disconfirmation of the theory. Today my conclusion regarding these matters is that the theory of the
fractal and cyclical nature of novelty's ingression into the world is a truly self-consistent and completely mathematical theory. It is true to
itself. And it returns the human drama and our own lives to the very center of the universal stage.
It is possible, in a certain sense, that all states of liberation are nothing more than perfect knowledge of the contents of eternity. If one knows
what is contained in time from its beginning to its end you are somehow no longer in time. Even though you still have a body and still eat and
do what you do, you have discovered something that liberates you into a satisfying all-at-onceness. There are other satisfactions that arise out
of the theory that are not touched
on in this formulation. Times are related to each other—things happen for a reason and the reason is not a causal one. Resonance, that
mysterious phenomenon in which a vibrating string seems magically to invoke a similar vibration in another string or object that is physically
unconnected, suggested itself as a model for the mysterious property that related one time to another even though they may be separated by
days, years, or even millennia. I became convinced that there is a wave, or a system of resonances, that conditions events on all levels. This
wave is fractal and self-referential, much like many of the most interesting new curves and objects being described at the frontiers of research
mathematics. This timewave is expressed throughout the universe on a number of extremely discrete levels. It causes atoms to be atoms, cells
to be cells, minds to be minds, and stars to be stars. What I am suggesting is a new metaphysics, a metaphysics with mathematical rigor;
something that is not simply a new belief or new religious conviction. Rather this insight takes the form of a formal proposition.
I would be the first to admit that it has not been possible to find a bridge between this theory and normal physics. Such a bridge may be
neither possible nor necessary. We may find that normal science indicates what is possible, while the time theory I propose offers an
explanation for what is. It is a theory that seems to explain how, of the class of all things possible, some events and things undergo the
formality of actually occurring. It is clear to me that the theory cannot be disproven from without; it can only be disproven by being found
inconsistent within itself. Anyone is welcome to dismantle it if they are able; this is what I have attempted to do and failed.
By November 16, 1971, I had begun to realize that the chart had too many variables to ever function as a predictive map of the future. It
would be necessary, I realized then, to quantify somehow the various parameters of the wave so that judgments concerning it could be less
subject to personal bias. My last piece of writing at La Cho-rrera was done on the morning of the sixteenth, my twenty-fifth birthday. It was a
kind of fable:
November 16, 1971
Two old friends, Arabian somehow, yet more ancient, sit in a palace far older than themselves, set on a mountainside surrounded by
vineyards, date palms, and citrus orchards. Insomniac and affable, they pass the long starry hours preceding dawn in the smoking of hashish
and the propounding of riddles.
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