Join My Cult - Original Falcon Press
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“Yes, but it is the source of my anger—a lot of it. There’s really little<br />
I can do to rectify this to my satisfaction. Just for the chance, Alexi, I feel<br />
that I’d give up a lot. If I had been born female, I might never have been<br />
so full of fear, shame, anger, and self-loathing. When you drew that picture<br />
in my journal the other day, the picture of me as I could have been,<br />
you did a better job than anyone could have. And here you are, human.”<br />
Alexi stopped on his heel and turned. “As are you. Think about it.” He<br />
emphasized those last three words. Ken looked at him, one eyebrow<br />
cocked, an expression that asked “What’s your point?” Alexi shrugged<br />
and continued walking. “I do my best. Was it better that I drew it or no?<br />
The iniquity is only more apparent. Come, clear your mind of that as<br />
much as you can for tonight. We cannot turn our backs on our problems,<br />
but we may be well advised to avoid warfare on every front.”<br />
“You should listen to your own advice, my friend,” Ken said. Alexi<br />
cocked his head, acknowledging the comment as valid. “Oh, one last<br />
thing. A reiteration, really: pivotal to everything, this must work out.<br />
You said you’d be pissed if it failed, and then seemed to reconsider… I’d<br />
be gone in a flash of false mirth and empty promises. And hurt, deep<br />
down.”<br />
“That’s a heavy load for one man, Ken.”<br />
“It’s not really up to just you, so don’t feel that I’m pressuring you. I<br />
know that’s not what you need.”<br />
“Much of it is on my back regardless. There is a subtext to everything<br />
we do… that we are gathering people, preparing for something. We don’t<br />
even know what it is ourselves but we feel it so strongly that there is no<br />
doubt. But think – where is this going? How will it work? We all have a<br />
very clear picture of how we don’t fit into the present culture. We all<br />
know that the status quo of suburban white-bread America is incapable<br />
of supporting anything but robots and people who take advantage of<br />
robots. And we all know that we may only have a few generations left to<br />
decide as a species if we’re going to make the conscious decision to<br />
evolve as a people, as tribes, or if we are going to remain separated,<br />
estranged by hate, and strip the planet of life. But I see only two ways of<br />
changing any calcified system: either blowing it up or changing it from<br />
the inside, a brick at a time, using the same mechanics they do. Beating<br />
them at their own game, as they say. Violence begets violence, right…<br />
that’s not an ecological option. And I don’t think any of us are willing to<br />
play ‘their’ game—what do we really expect to happen?” He paused.<br />
“Maybe we shouldn’t focus on the ‘them’ so much, but instead look at<br />
the ‘us,’ and continue to grow so that we can spread our message far and<br />
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