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How much pain does the submissive want to receive? Where 1 is none and 5 is severe:1 – 2 – 3 – 4 – 5Which of the following types of pain/punishment/discipline are acceptable to the Submissive?• Spanking• Paddling• Whipping• Caning• Biting• Nipple clamps• Genital clamps• Ice• Hot wax• Other types/methods of painHoly Fuck. I can’t bring myself to even consider the food list. I swallow hard, mymouth dry, and read it again.My head is buzzing. How can I possibly agree to all this? And apparently it’s for mybenefit, to explore my sensuality, my limits – safely – oh please! I scoff angrily. Serve andobey in all things. All Things! I shake my head in disbelief. Actually, doesn’t the marriageceremony use those words… obey? This throws me. Do couples still say that? Only threemonths, is that why there have been so many? He doesn’t keep them for long? Or havethey had enough after three months? Every weekend? That’s too much. I’ll never see Kateor whatever friends I may make at my new job – provided I get one. Perhaps I should haveone weekend a month to myself. Perhaps when I have my period, that sounds… practical.He’s my master! To be dealt with as he pleases! Holy shit.I shudder at the thought of being flogged or whipped. Spanking probably wouldn’t beso bad, humiliating though. And tied up? Well he did tie my hands together. That was…well it was hot, really hot, so perhaps that won’t be so bad. He won’t loan me to anotherDominant – damn right he won’t. That would be totally unacceptable. Why am I eventhinking about this?I can’t look him in the eye. How weird is that? The only way I ever have any chanceto see what he’s thinking. Actually, whom am I kidding, I never know what he’s thinking,but I like looking into his eyes. He has beautiful eyes – captivating, intelligent, deep anddark, dark with dominant secrets. I recall his burning smoky gaze and press my thighstogether, squirming.And I can’t touch him. Well, no surprise there. And these silly rules… No, no I can’tdo this. I put my head in my hands. This is no way to have a relationship. I need somesleep. I’m shattered. All the physical shenanigans I’ve been engaged in over the lasttwenty-four hours have been, frankly, exhausting. And mentally… oh man, this is so much