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HISTORY OF THE ROSICRUC1ANS.
few more years to live, that this anguish and melancholy
life would easily dispatch me, and then my doorkeeping
would be at an end, and that by a most happy sleep I
Solatium. might quickly bring myself into the grave. Sometimes it
Autor
vexed me that I had seen such gallant things, and must be
robbed of them ; sometimes it rejoyced me that before my
end I had been accepted to all joy, and should not be forced
so shamefully to depart.
Thus this was the last and worst
shock that I sustained. During these my cogitations the
rest were ready, wherefore, after they had received a good
night from the King and Lords,
each was conducted into
his lodging, but I, most wretched man, had nobody to show
me the way, and yet must suffer myself to be tormented.
That I might be certain of my future function,
I was fain
to P ut on *^e Rin g which the other had worn. Finally,
aSmm. tne King exhorted me that, since this was the last time I
was like to see him in this manner, I should behave myself
according to my place, and not against the Order, upon
which he took me in his arms and kissed me, all which I
understood as if in the morning I must sit at my gate.
After they had all spoken friendly to me, and at last pre-
sented their hands, committing me to the divine protection,
I was by both the old men the Lord of the Tower and
Auteraormit Atlas conducted into a glorious lodging, in which stood
cum atlante
& sene three beds, and each of us lay in one of them, where we yet
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Tunis.
spent almost two, &c.
Here are wanting about two leaves in quarto, and he (the
author hereof), whereas he imagined he must in the morning
be door-keeper, returned home.