TIME IN THE NOVELS OF MILOS CRNJANSKI - Nottingham eTheses

CHAPTER SIX
Nemalt1na, samo~a, b01elt1na, sve joj se
to u~1ni lenska sudbina, kao i to bedno
ostajanje i ~ekanje sad na jedno~, sad na
d~u~o~. Seti se, odjednom, ku~e svojih u
T~stu, ~de je bi1a i1i 1utka odevena
la~eno, i11 slulkinja koja je uve~e i
ujut~u sv1a~11a, 1 obla~11a, b~a~u 1
mato~o~ o~uha, ~1baju~1 svake subote
kanta~e 1 kamene k1upe oko tez~e. Set1
se 1 b~aka u kome je b11a tako s~etna.
Ra~a1a je decu. se1jaka1a se, a11
ne znaju~1 n1kad n1 ~uda ~e, ni zalto.
Radost1 njene 1 la10st1 d01az11e su
potpuno s1u~ajno, a najmanje po v01ji
njenoj. I ova pre1juba~ ·1 ovo ul1vanje
sa jedn1m novim 1 druk~1j1m mulkarcem,
kr1lom, dol10 je bez njene v01je, po
njinoj volj1. neum1tno. Stvar. stvar je
bi1a, kao Ito ~e to 1 njene k~er1 biti.
uzimane i ostavljane, iscmakane i
odba~ene. 11zane i uda~ene, bez reda. bez
smis1a. Sva ta ljubav p~ema njoj. za~
n1je bi1a neka razonada te dvoj1ce (60).
Povertv. 10ne11ness. i11ness. that a11
seemed to her women's ~ate. like the
wretched 1eavinc behind and waitn~ now
~o~ one. now ~or anothe~. She
~emembered. sudden1v. the house o~ her
~ami1v in Trieste, where she was eithe~ a
d011 dressed ~a11v. or a servant who in
the evenin~ and in the mo~ninc wou1d
undress and dress her brothers and her
old step~ather. sc~ubbin~ the sc&1es and
the stone benches around the counter
eve~v Saturdav. She ~emembered her
marria~e in which she had been so happv.
She had children. moved, but
never know1nc neither where nor whv. Ber
jovs and her sorrows came comp1ete1v bv
chance, and least o~ &11 bV her w111.
And this adu1terv. and this pleasure with
a new d1~~erent man, secret1u. came
without her w111. bv their wi11,
IIIt'xcrably·. A thine. she haa been a
thine, as her dauehte~s wi11 be too,
taken and abandoned. kiased arid rejected,
and beaten, without sense,
po1nt1ess1u. A11 this 10ve ~or her, was
it not just 11ke some diversion ~or the
two men.
-~ond1ed
The 1saue ~or
Dat1na is not persona1, but a matter which
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