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They went to the late show in an old cellar between Theatiner and Residenz Strasse which showed three silent films by Georges Méliès. When the lights came on again Alexandra had her anger against Katharina under control, but could not admit to herself that the diagnosis of her black mood was jealousy, instead of her husband she destroyed the films. "What a horrible romantic Kitsch this was!" She declared with finality. "The film were like the flip-books we used to buy in the bazaar when I was small, only faster." Konrad and Katharina silently accepted the dark cloud, which had descended on their innocent day. 158
Georgian Gloom overcomes Alexandra Claudia and Dioskorides 1904 Pursued by irrational fears, Alexandra railed against fate. Helpless, Konrad began to avoid her. With some excuse or other he would stay late at work. One night he called to say that he would be detained at some faculty meeting and be home late, after supper. That evening Alexandra lost her head. Against all better knowledge, she suspected him to be with Katharina. She left the house in panic and wandered through the streets of Munich for hours, sobbing. "He cannot do this to me. I love him and need him! He cannot leave me. I have nowhere to go, no place where I am at home. He has abducted me into this exile, where I am lost. He holds my life in his hands." Tears ran down her face. "Konrad!" she cried in despair, "don’t abandon me!" People turned to stare at her. She did not care. Somewhere in a back street of the Lehel, she passed an unpretentious church built into a row of houses. A curved facade, a brass plate: St. Anna im Lehel, Johann Michael Fischeri fecit 1732. In her despair she went in hoping for a quiet place to calm down. Overwhelmed by the splendor and the airiness of its space, surrounded by colors, angels, flourishing, gilded ornaments, under a ceiling covered with an huge fresco, she sat down in one of the pews and let her eyes wander. Most astonishing are, she thought, the quiet proportions of this space. She followed the curve of the ceiling from one of the four columns to the center and lost all her heaviness. What clear, serene beauty, how is it possible that color, stucco, and space harmonize like music? She thought of the churches of Russia, which resembled overloaded, gilded caves, how strange, this was a Christian faith completely unknown to her, of a wild joy, an ecstatic, extravagant otherworldliness—very different from the heavy Italian Baroque. She forgot time and herself and left only when the church filled with somber people, and a priest appeared to celebrate the evening service. Her head had cleared. "It is my Georgian penchant to wallow in gloom and despair. Katharina has nothing to do with it, and Konrad is honest and really innocent. This is the moloch of jealousy who is trying to eat me up. I have to free myself from it, and all three of us will be blissfully happy." When she came home, a worried Konrad was waiting for her. She embraced him. "Forgive me, I was overcome by my fear of losing you. I shall try to love you and Katharina better. Give me time, please." "Alexandra," Konrad said. "Brace yourself, ours are small worries. I have bad news from St. Petersburg. Things are slipping towards a catastrophe." Alexandra paled. "Did you find mail from home?" "Yes, I found a letter from Deda to you in my office mail. According to the newspapers everything looks bleak and dark in Russia. Nicholas is clueless and improvises more 159
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Konrad and Alexandra The Chronicle
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24.The Dahl's House, Katharina, 190
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One piece of luggage after another
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I sank into a restless sleep and th
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jokes. Fifteen years ago Leist had
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goats, and driven from behind by sh
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two of us." Tiflis 1898 Tiflis and
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comprehension that fortune had sent
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Wine Merchants, Tiflis Bazaar, 1890
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I can never completely shake off vi
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couches. They were given big towels
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Alexandra Dadiani Tiflis 1898 She w
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Dadiani laughed so heartily that Ko
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eally introverted. We love tragedy,
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"Konrad, come and join us, it must
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Chekhov's "Chaika" and Henri the Go
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He handed her the necklace. She str
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curtain. Konrad, raised on the clea
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Henry nodded. "I know what you mean
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"I know you feel overawed by the ta
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Alexandra's Necklace Konrad’s emo
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Georgia on Horseback 1898 Konrad’
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Konrad laughed. "That was exactly w
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came from the desert, a jackal or a
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Around the white cathedral that tow
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The Engagement Konrad and Alexandra
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find the love she needed. He had pu
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The half hour ride took them up a v
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After the dance ended, a deep silen
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Ilia Chavchavadze, Tiflis, 1900 (Wi
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Irakli raised his glass. "Do bury t
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New Year 1899 The jeunesse d’oré
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"May I look at your watch? What is
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possibility of a physical abduction
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well in Telavi, return tomorrow. A
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Alexandra described the sequence of
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It was Easter night. On his last vi
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hoarsely, "Mein Gott, you are right
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sharply. Konrad smiled. "We left he
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that no publisher would touch the m
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The Last Feudal Wedding in Kakheti
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Alexandra sees in me. A remarkably
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Alexandra had phonetically translit
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"Listen my love, try to lie absolut
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over dark waters to an undisclosed
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The Wolfsons Fiesole and Florence 1
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anecdote: my brother studied theolo
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vanishing lines. They are not shown
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Alexandra tried to compare both pai
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Sisakians, she found, disconcerted,
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existed no viable political alterna
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Russian aristocrats are blind or si
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The ball became a great, albeit con
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Page 112 and 113: women as you are now. His skill suc
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Page 116 and 117: Otto's Birth 1900 At four in the mo
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Page 122 and 123: Alexandra had waited for him and fi
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Page 136 and 137: Berlin 1904 Alexandra had received
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Page 142 and 143: Rheinsberg 1904 They traveled by tr
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Page 170 and 171: "You guessed right," she said in Ge
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Page 182 and 183: Fashing Munich 1905 Once a year Dio
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Page 188 and 189: They woke up late next morning. Kon
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Alexandra's Time "Friedrich," said
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points I felt the eyes of the Gods
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Meeting Clara Westhoff München and
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"I rented the large dining hall and
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Despite the scarf, Alexandra could
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adoration of her bizarre beauty. Ev
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and do not flush in breathless wave
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Snowbound in Eydtkuhnen 1905 "Konra
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the platform. Someone unrolled a re
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The von Bredow's Snow Casle From be
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They tiptoed downstairs and along t
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Return to St. Petersburg 1905 Konra
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power and calls for the establishme
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taken Rilke’s abandoned wife alon
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And her narrow hand in rings. "Ever
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They had, one day, swum out to a lo
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impression on us, you have to conce
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his best to bring some kind of stab
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Uncle Muravi's Benz Tiflis 1907 "Ma
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you have ever known me. Can’t you
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after me. I would have liked to bri
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From the very beginning little Soph
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like he: They look at someone and k
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long ride with Claudia and her pare
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In the evening, alone with Dahl and
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maternal rule?" Alexandra burst out
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hair and build. Cousin Tamara was t
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along, which I will tie to the pers
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I could live just as well in Svanet
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suspected to suffer from tuberculos
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The dinner feast became a grand aff
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things." Alexandra surprised Shalva
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cut the bread effigy into small pie
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her hands during her examination. W
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Adishi Gocha Teaching Dream Work Ad
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talked to me during the night, but
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Ilia Chavchavadze's funeral train a
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Their slightly feminist-tinged conv
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he spent six hours with her and twi
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and patience are most important. A
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strokes on large pieces of newspape
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while Izabel became their quietly d
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ankles, this très-solide, yet well
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in 1907! At first, this fact and th
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my company. Together, we could have
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covered with faded, dark-red plush,
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not sell me this painting, I will d
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Konrad in China 1911-1912 In Octobe
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father is very impressed by your so
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Niko. "You asked me what would happ
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teachers of the great Medresses in
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The patient, an old man suffering f
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Konrad's Return from China St. Pert
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which I did not understand. When I
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Konrad dug a thick, battered sketch
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everybody. "Konrad, will you let me
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Alexandra let out a peal of laughte
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Alexandra's Journey to Munich 1913
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ediscovering the old sympathies. Pe
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Dahl's Examination of Alexandra Mun
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in Svaneti may not have been perman
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"My shadow-soul flies into an embra
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Ever since Claudia’s outbreak in
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A Visit to Kandinsky Murnau 1913 Al
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sexual arousal, dance rhythms, and
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He invited them to dinner in the vi
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any thought to. A group of children
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Petersburg. They will have a simple
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you smile meekly and remain silent.
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herself to sleep. With the last mai
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of his faithful. One night around t
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ead and the resignation of the Empe
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Vladimir gulped down his glass of v
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Their Flight to Georgia May 1918 In
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It was an unreal night, the scare a
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negotiate the bad mountain tracks.
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was very much of her own mind. Meli
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director at the hospital until the
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Kräuterfrau, a herbalist in the Ge
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He paused and took a sip from his g
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German Troops in Tbilisi 1918 - 191
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would crown the tombstone on his gr
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we are late." "Tell me what was you
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adventure on that German ship to Ha
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"Friedrich, who was a very successf
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Alexandra’s diminutive scribble w
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The snotty character in the shaft-b
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final reckoning with Georgia. Withi
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again war was raging behind the mou
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She undid it and let it flow into m
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ut she did not explain why―a Sufi
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weeks among the obscurer Greek writ
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