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But I was running Windows 95. Windows 95 took forever to shut down. I was closing<br />
windows, shutting down programs. I had one of those fat Seagate drives that damaged easily,<br />
and I didn’t want to cut the power and possibly damage the drive. This cop clearly didn’t give<br />
a fuck about any of that.<br />
“Shut it down! Shut it down!”<br />
“I am! I’m shutting it down! I have to close the programs!”<br />
The crowd was getting angry, and the cop was getting nervous. He turned his gun away<br />
from me and shot the computer. Only he clearly didn’t know anything about computers<br />
because he shot the monitor. The monitor exploded but the music kept playing. Now there<br />
was chaos—music blaring and everyone running and panicking because of the gunshot. I<br />
yanked the power cord out of the tower to shut the thing down. Then the cops started firing<br />
tear gas into the crowd.<br />
The tear gas had nothing to do with me or the music. Tear gas is just what the police use<br />
to shut down parties in black neighborhoods, like the club turning on the lights to tell<br />
everyone to go home.<br />
I lost the hard drive. Even though the cop shot the monitor the explosion somehow fried<br />
the thing. The computer would still boot up, but it couldn’t read the drive. My music library<br />
was gone. Even if I’d had the money for a new hard drive, it had taken me years to amass the<br />
music collection. There was no way to replace it. The DJ’ing business was over. The CDselling<br />
business was done. All of a sudden our crew lost its main revenue stream. All we had<br />
left was the hustle, and we hustled even harder, taking the bit of cash we had on hand and<br />
trying to double it, buying this to flip it for that. We started eating into our savings, and in<br />
less than a month we were running on dust.<br />
Then, one evening after work, our friend from the airport, the black Mr. Burns, came by.<br />
“Hey, look what I found,” he said.<br />
“What’ve you got?”<br />
“A camera.”<br />
I’ll never forget that camera. It was a digital camera. We bought it from him, and I took it<br />
and turned it on. It was full of pictures of a nice white family on vacation, and I felt like shit.<br />
The other things we’d bought had never mattered to me. Nikes, electric toothbrushes, electric<br />
razors. Who cares? Yeah, some guy might get fired because of the pallet of Corn Flakes that<br />
went missing from the supermarket, but that’s degrees removed. You don’t think about it.<br />
But this camera had a face. I went through those pictures, knowing how much my family<br />
pictures meant to me, and I thought, I haven’t stolen a camera. I’ve stolen someone’s<br />
memories. I’ve stolen part of someone’s life.<br />
It’s such a strange thing, but in two years of hustling I never once thought of it as a<br />
crime. I honestly didn’t think it was bad. It’s just stuff people found. White people have<br />
insurance. Whatever rationalization was handy. In society, we do horrible things to one<br />
another because we don’t see the person it affects. We don’t see their face. We don’t see them<br />
as people. Which was the whole reason the hood was built in the first place, to keep the<br />
victims of apartheid out of sight and out of mind. Because if white people ever saw black<br />
people as human, they would see that slavery is unconscionable. We live in a world where we<br />
don’t see the ramifications of what we do to others, because we don’t live with them. It would