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and uncles had gone off to the cities to find work, and the children who weren’t wanted, or<br />
whom no one could afford to feed, had been sent back to the homeland to live on this aunt’s<br />
farm.<br />
The homelands were, ostensibly, the original homes of South Africa’s tribes, sovereign<br />
and semi-sovereign “nations” where black people would be “free.” Of course, this was a lie.<br />
For starters, despite the fact that black people made up over 80 percent of South Africa’s<br />
population, the territory allocated for the homelands was about 13 percent of the country’s<br />
land. There was no running water, no electricity. People lived in huts.<br />
Where South Africa’s white countryside was lush and irrigated and green, the black lands<br />
were overpopulated and overgrazed, the soil depleted and eroding. Other than the menial<br />
wages sent home from the cities, families scraped by with little beyond subsistence-level<br />
farming. My mother’s aunt hadn’t taken her in out of charity. She was there to work. “I was<br />
one of the cows,” my mother would later say, “one of the oxen.” She and her cousins were up<br />
at half past four, plowing fields and herding animals before the sun baked the soil as hard as<br />
cement and made it too hot to be anywhere but in the shade.<br />
For dinner there might be one chicken to feed fourteen children. My mom would have to<br />
fight with the bigger kids to get a handful of meat or a sip of the gravy or even a bone from<br />
which to suck out some marrow. And that’s when there was food for dinner at all. When<br />
there wasn’t, she’d steal food from the pigs. She’d steal food from the dogs. The farmers<br />
would put out scraps for the animals, and she’d jump for it. She was hungry; let the animals<br />
fend for themselves. There were times when she literally ate dirt. She would go down to the<br />
river, take the clay from the riverbank, and mix it with the water to make a grayish kind of<br />
milk. She’d drink that to feel full.<br />
But my mother was blessed that her village was one of the places where a mission school<br />
had contrived to stay open in spite of the government’s Bantu education policies. There she<br />
had a white pastor who taught her English. She didn’t have food or shoes or even a pair of<br />
underwear, but she had English. She could read and write. When she was old enough she<br />
stopped working on the farm and got a job at a factory in a nearby town. She worked on a<br />
sewing machine making school uniforms. Her pay at the end of each day was a plate of food.<br />
She used to say it was the best food she’d ever eaten, because it was something she had<br />
earned on her own. She wasn’t a burden to anyone and didn’t owe anything to anyone.<br />
When my mom turned twenty-one, her aunt fell ill and that family could no longer keep<br />
her in Transkei. My mom wrote to my gran, asking her to send the price of a train ticket,<br />
about thirty rand, to bring her home. Back in Soweto, my mom enrolled in the secretarial<br />
course that allowed her to grab hold of the bottom rung of the white-collar world. She worked<br />
and worked and worked but, living under my grandmother’s roof, she wasn’t allowed to keep<br />
her own wages. As a secretary, my mom was bringing home more money than anyone else,<br />
and my grandmother insisted it all go to the family. The family needed a radio, an oven, a<br />
refrigerator, and it was now my mom’s job to provide it.<br />
So many black families spend all of their time trying to fix the problems of the past. That<br />
is the curse of being black and poor, and it is a curse that follows you from generation to<br />
generation. My mother calls it “the black tax.” Because the generations who came before you<br />
have been pillaged, rather than being free to use your skills and education to move forward,<br />
you lose everything just trying to bring everyone behind you back up to zero. Working for the