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dad’s, where we’d watch Formula 1 racing instead of casting out demons.<br />
I celebrated my birthday with my dad every year, and we spent Christmas with him as<br />
well. I loved Christmas with my dad because my dad celebrated European Christmas.<br />
European Christmas was the best Christmas ever. My dad went all out. He had Christmas<br />
lights and a Christmas tree. He had fake snow and snow globes and stockings hung by the<br />
fireplace and lots of wrapped presents from Santa Claus. African Christmas was a lot more<br />
practical. We’d go to church, come home, have a nice meal with good meat and lots of custard<br />
and jelly. But there was no tree. You’d get a present, but it was usually just clothes, a new<br />
outfit. You might get a toy, but it wasn’t wrapped and it was never from Santa Claus. The<br />
whole issue of Santa Claus is a rather contentious one when it comes to African Christmas, a<br />
matter of pride. When an African dad buys his kid a present, the last thing he’s going to do is<br />
give some fat white man credit for it. African Dad will tell you straight up, “No, no, no. I<br />
bought you that.”<br />
Outside of birthdays and special occasions, all we had were our Sunday afternoons. He<br />
would cook for me. He’d ask me what I wanted, and I’d always request the exact same meal, a<br />
German dish called Rösti, which is basically a pancake made out of potatoes and some sort of<br />
meat with a gravy. I’d have that and a bottle of Sprite, and for dessert a plastic container of<br />
custard with caramel on top.<br />
A good chunk of those afternoons would pass in silence. My dad didn’t talk much. He<br />
was caring and devoted, attentive to detail, always a card on my birthday, always my favorite<br />
food and toys when I came for a visit. But at the same time he was a closed book. We’d talk<br />
about the food he was making, talk about the F1 racing we’d watched. Every now and then<br />
he’d drop a tidbit of information, about a place he’d visited or his steakhouse. But that was it.<br />
Being with my dad was like watching a web series. I’d get a few minutes of information a few<br />
minutes at a time, then I’d have to wait a week for the next installment.<br />
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When I was thirteen my dad moved to Cape Town, and we lost touch. We’d been losing touch<br />
for a while, for a couple of reasons. I was a teenager. I had a whole other world I was dealing<br />
with now. Videogames and computers meant more to me than spending time with my<br />
parents. Also, my mom had married Abel. He was incensed by the idea of my mom being in<br />
contact with her previous love, and she decided it was safer for everyone involved not to test<br />
his anger. I went from seeing my dad every Sunday to seeing him every other Sunday, maybe<br />
once a month, whenever my mom could sneak me over, same as she’d done back in Hillbrow.<br />
We’d gone from living under apartheid to living under another kind of tyranny, that of an<br />
abusive, alcoholic man.<br />
At the same time, Yeoville had started to suffer from white flight, neglect, general<br />
decline. Most of my dad’s German friends had left for Cape Town. If he wasn’t seeing me, he<br />
had no reason to stay, so he left. His leaving wasn’t anything traumatic, because it never<br />
registered that we might lose touch and never see each other again. In my mind it was just<br />
Dad’s moving to Cape Town for a bit. Whatever.<br />
Then he was gone. I stayed busy living my life, surviving high school, surviving my early<br />
twenties, becoming a comedian. My career took off quickly. I got a radio DJ gig and hosted a