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nowhere. But look, you have a yard!” For some reason the streets in Eden Park were named<br />
after cars: Jaguar Street. Ferrari Street. Honda Street. I don’t know if that was a coincidence<br />
or not, but it’s funny because colored people in South Africa are known for loving fancy cars.<br />
It was like living in a white neighborhood with all the streets named after varietals of fine<br />
wine.<br />
I remember moving out there in flashbacks, snippets, driving to a place I’d never seen,<br />
seeing people I’d never seen. It was flat, not many trees, the same dusty red-clay dirt and<br />
grass as Soweto but with proper houses and paved roads and a sense of suburbia to it. Ours<br />
was a tiny house at the bend in the road right off Toyota Street. It was modest and cramped<br />
inside, but walking in I thought, Wow. We are really living. It was crazy to have my own<br />
room. I didn’t like it. My whole life I’d slept in a room with my mom or on the floor with my<br />
cousins. I was used to having other human beings right next to me, so I slept in my mom’s<br />
bed most nights.<br />
There was no stepfather in the picture yet, no baby brother crying in the night. It was me<br />
and her, alone. There was this sense of the two of us embarking on a grand adventure. She’d<br />
say things to me like, “It’s you and me against the world.” I understood even from an early<br />
age that we weren’t just mother and son. We were a team.<br />
It was when we moved to Eden Park that we finally got a car, the beat-up, tangerine<br />
Volkswagen my mother bought secondhand for next to nothing. One out of five times it<br />
wouldn’t start. There was no AC. Anytime I made the mistake of turning on the fan the vent<br />
would fart bits of leaves and dust all over me. Whenever it broke down we’d catch minibuses,<br />
or sometimes we’d hitchhike. She’d make me hide in the bushes because she knew men<br />
would stop for a woman but not a woman with a child. She’d stand by the road, the driver<br />
would pull over, she’d open the door and then whistle, and I’d come running up to the car. I<br />
would watch their faces drop as they realized they weren’t picking up an attractive single<br />
woman but an attractive single woman with a fat little kid.<br />
When the car did work, we had the windows down, sputtering along and baking in the<br />
heat. For my entire life the dial on that car’s radio stayed on one station. It was called Radio<br />
Pulpit, and as the name suggests it was nothing but preaching and praise. I wasn’t allowed to<br />
touch that dial. Anytime the radio wasn’t getting reception, my mom would pop in a cassette<br />
of Jimmy Swaggart sermons. (When we finally found out about the scandal? Oh, man. That<br />
was rough.)<br />
But as shitty as our car was, it was a car. It was freedom. We weren’t black people stuck<br />
in the townships, waiting for public transport. We were black people who were out in the<br />
world. We were black people who could wake up and say, “Where do we choose to go today?”<br />
On the commute to work and school, there was a long stretch of the road into town that was<br />
completely deserted. That’s where Mom would let me drive. On the highway. I was six. She’d<br />
put me on her lap and let me steer and work the indicators while she worked the pedals and<br />
the stick shift. After a few months of that, she taught me how to work the stick. She was still<br />
working the clutch, but I’d climb onto her lap and take the stick, and she’d call out the gears<br />
as we drove. There was this one part of the road that ran deep into a valley and then back up<br />
the other side. We’d get up a head of speed, and we’d stick it into neutral and let go of the<br />
brake and the clutch, and, woo-hoo!, we’d race down the hill and then, zoom!, we’d shoot up<br />
the other side. We were flying.