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into that club.<br />
Colored people had it rough. Imagine: You’ve been brainwashed into believing that your<br />
blood is tainted. You’ve spent all your time assimilating and aspiring to whiteness. Then, just<br />
as you think you’re closing in on the finish line, some fucking guy named Nelson Mandela<br />
comes along and flips the country on its head. Now the finish line is back where the starting<br />
line was, and the benchmark is black. Black is in charge. Black is beautiful. Black is powerful.<br />
For centuries colored people were told: Blacks are monkeys. Don’t swing from the trees like<br />
them. Learn to walk upright like the white man. Then all of a sudden it’s Planet of the Apes,<br />
and the monkeys have taken over.<br />
—<br />
So you can imagine how weird it was for me. I was mixed but not colored—colored by<br />
complexion but not by culture. Because of that I was seen as a colored person who didn’t<br />
want to be colored.<br />
In Eden Park, I encountered two types of colored people. Some colored people hated me<br />
because of my blackness. My hair was curly and I was proud of my Afro. I spoke African<br />
languages and loved speaking them. People would hear me speaking Xhosa or Zulu and<br />
they’d say, “Wat is jy? ’n Boesman?” “What are you, a Bushman?” Why are you trying to be<br />
black? Why do you speak that click-click language? Look at your light skin. You’re almost<br />
there and you’re throwing it away.<br />
Other colored people hated me because of my whiteness. Even though I identified as<br />
being black, I had a white father. I went to an English private school. I’d learned to get along<br />
with white people at church. I could speak perfect English, and I barely spoke Afrikaans, the<br />
language colored people were supposed to speak. So colored people thought that I thought I<br />
was better than them. They would mock my accent, like I was putting on airs. “Dink jy, jy is<br />
grênd?” “You think you’re high class?”—uppity, people would say in America.<br />
Even when I thought I was liked, I wasn’t. One year I got a brand-new bike during the<br />
summer holidays. My cousin Mlungisi and I were taking turns riding around the block. I was<br />
riding up our street when this cute colored girl came out to the road and stopped me. She<br />
smiled and waved to me sweetly.<br />
“Hey,” she said, “can I ride your bike?”<br />
I was completely shocked. Oh, wow, I thought, I made a friend.<br />
“Yeah, of course,” I said.<br />
I got off and she got on and rode about twenty or thirty feet. Some random older kid<br />
came running up to the street, she stopped and got off, and he climbed on and rode away. I<br />
was so happy that a girl had spoken to me that it didn’t fully sink in that they’d stolen my<br />
bicycle. I ran back home, smiling and skipping along. My cousin asked where the bicycle was.<br />
I told him.<br />
“Trevor, you’ve been robbed,” he said. “Why didn’t you chase them?”<br />
“I thought they were being nice. I thought I’d made a friend.”<br />
Mlungisi was older, my protector. He ran off and found the kids, and thirty minutes later<br />
he came back with my bike.