Kill Switch by Penelope Douglas

anything, and neither did I. That wasn’t the last time I’d talk to
him, right? I mean, that was no way to say goodbye.
I dreamt of him last night and woke up concocting a hot
little fantasy in my head of him finding me years down the
road and doing passionate things to me. I ached when I
remembered I didn’t want to wait that long to be with him
again, though. If ever.
The only bright side I could find in possibly never feeling
him again was that your first love was a learning experience.
Or so my mom said. They’re not the ones you marry, she told
me. They’re the ones who break you, so you can rebuild
yourself better. Stronger.
But I didn’t care. I wanted him to come back. I wanted him
to hurt me. Just as long as he came back.
“What are they like?” I asked, breaking the silence and
trying to change the subject. “The horsemen? Besides Damon,
I mean?”
I already had an idea of the tool he’d turned into. I couldn’t
believe I’d suspected him to be my ghost. My guy was out of
this world. And he didn’t smoke, thank goodness.
“Well, Kai’s the nicest,” Rika’s friend, Claudia, said.
“He’s bad in all the right places, though,” someone else
teased.
“He and Damon look a lot alike,” Claudia continued.
“Both dark hair and eyes, but Kai’s more…manicured, I guess
you could say. Damon always looks like he just shifted back to
his human form after being a wolf all night.” She laughed.
“His hair and clothes are never in order…”
“And Will?” I asked, trying to get the focus off Damon.
“Will’s nice, too,” Rika chimed in, “but he’s not as sincere
as Kai is, I think. He’s good-looking and even better for a
laugh. He treats girls better than Damon or Michael do, but…I
don’t know.” She trailed off, pensive. “He’s never serious. I
don’t think he’s ever had a serious girlfriend like Kai has, has
he?”