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<strong>Making</strong> <strong>Your</strong> <strong>First</strong> <strong>Million</strong><br />
only place that welcomes you with open arms is the drive-through bottle shop, the only<br />
place left to drink is home. And home has particular advantages. It's cheaper <strong>and</strong> it never<br />
closes.<br />
I was drinking again <strong>and</strong> I was going to die. But I didn't want to die. But I knew the end<br />
result <strong>of</strong> my drinking was death. Once I'd started I couldn't stop. Previously I hadn't<br />
wanted to stop. Prior to going to AA all I'd wanted to do was drink myself to death but<br />
AA had given me hope. Now I was on the merry-go-round again <strong>and</strong> I knew I couldn't<br />
get <strong>of</strong>f until I was dead. But I didn't want to die. I tried to drown the rat in my head but it<br />
had learnt to swim. Round <strong>and</strong> round. As always I was the last to leave, unable to find the<br />
car, much less the keys, but the barmaid had called me a cab <strong>and</strong> I went home.<br />
Lying in bed just after midnight the rat surfaced again: " I'm drinking again. I'm going to<br />
die. I don't want to die.", when a voice came into my head: "Try prayer." And I thought:<br />
"No way. There's no God." I knew there was no God. And the voice said: "Just as you<br />
knew you were not an alcoholic." And the rat clamored for my attention: "I'm drinking<br />
again. I'm going to die. I don't want to die." And the voice came again: "Try prayer." And<br />
my head spun <strong>and</strong> I stuck my leg out <strong>of</strong> the bed <strong>and</strong> put it on the ground to stop the world<br />
spinning. I was pretty drunk. And the rat insisted: "I'm drinking again. I'm going to die. I<br />
don't want to die!" And the voice said: "Try prayer."<br />
I had no answer. I knew there was no God. I knew it was all mumbo jumbo to keep the<br />
peasants in order but I had no answer, no relief from the rat in my head <strong>and</strong> I said: "Okay.<br />
I'll give it a go. I'll try anything once. Oh this is stupid. There's no God. I feel like an<br />
idiot." And I lay there <strong>and</strong> said: "Okay God, if you're there, Cool H<strong>and</strong> George here." I<br />
was Cool H<strong>and</strong> George. Master <strong>of</strong> my own destiny. If I wasn't happy I'd make more<br />
money. If she wasn't happy I'd buy her a new car. I was not about to admit defeat. I ran<br />
on raw energy <strong>and</strong> had a tightly wound spring <strong>of</strong> aggression <strong>and</strong> 'never-say-die' inside<br />
me. "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can't change." That was as far as I<br />
got. The moment I dropped my guard that much the spring inside <strong>of</strong> me went tick, tick,<br />
brrrrrrr, <strong>and</strong> unwound. And I was at peace. All stress <strong>and</strong> tension gone, And I felt<br />
whoever or whatever this power outside <strong>of</strong> myself is, reach down <strong>and</strong> lift the burden from<br />
me. And the voice said: "You've taken the first step. You're on your way."<br />
Now I know I was drunk <strong>and</strong> that this episode may have simply been self-delusionary.<br />
But the point is, this experience changed my life. The obsession to drink was taken from<br />
me <strong>and</strong> has never returned. I went on to find the real wealth I'd been looking for in the<br />
peace, contentment <strong>and</strong> focus this experience gave me. Up until this point I was the<br />
master <strong>of</strong> the universe. I reveled in power, money <strong>and</strong> control. I could have anything I<br />
wanted. But my life was fundamentally flawed. I acknowledged only that which I could<br />
see or buy or hold in my h<strong>and</strong>. I looked at the material world as my personal playground<br />
<strong>and</strong> the only things <strong>of</strong> value were things or people or experiences that gave me pleasure,<br />
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