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174 o In Goa, tourists tear along on motorcycles, ignoring the tacit road rules. At Anjuna market, everyone has something to sell, spices, dolls, embroidered fabrics. From the Rajasthani woman I buy a cylindrical woven hat, zig-zagged with colour that perches atop my head. o Aunty Thecla and I share a discerning palate. She, more catholic than the pope, me, more pagan than Sappho. Like me, she peels the pith from the segments of orange, she spits out the pips of grapes, and her favourite food is pasta. During the telling of stories, I realise that the headache
175 has finally lifted, post-migraine élan drives through me, I say, It’s done, it’s gone, I’ll be okay now. o I go to bed, check my mobile. There’s a message. My sister. My father. My father has died. Three days short of his ninety-first birthday. One month after my dream and a day filled with memories of him. 29 Jan The day is swinging out of view I’m caught in limbo I can’t reach my sister. It’s four a.m. in Australia. At eight a.m. her phone is engaged. Perhaps a message to western China to my niece. Or to my brother. I begin to write an sms,
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Susan Hawthorne is a poet, novelist
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the Butterfly Effect Susan Hawthorn
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Contents note to sappho vii The But
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Note to Sappho It’s been a long t
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3 Strange tractors It’s an ancien
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5 We stand in a place where flowers
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7 not missing a beat. His history i
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Unstopped Mouths
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11 Unstopped Mouths 1 we meet in th
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13 simplified a single twist of hai
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15 we line the shelves of our homes
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17 summer with fire in the nostrils
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19 Empurpled 1 physicists speak of
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21 to the moon 5 with desire satisf
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23 we play pool billiards and snook
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25 harpies sirens birds of prey les
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27 In the Prisons we are known as c
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29 it’s still happening just two
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31 when the moon rises full in Scor
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33 my friend Daisy killed her husba
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35 some live in prisons without wal
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37 Rose Garden those who have no me
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39 making rosettes embroidering pil
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41 we fall upon one another kissing
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43 Firenze in honour of Jacqui Stoc
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45 porticos are chosen for secret m
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47 the cupola floats like a giant b
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49 we share our home with dogs cats
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51 Death for Maureen O’Connor it
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53 we stand in the cold gathering s
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55 Gumboots and Goblin Fruit we pul
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57 amazons Margaret Bhadravati Boud
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59 with the assistance of harnesses
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61 sipping at lemons 22 relishing t
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63 Amphibious Lips we tuck hibiscus
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65 we take our boats casting off 11
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67 some days we float above corals
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69 we build fires on the beach cook
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71 The Land for Renate and River I
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73 known to drive nine hundred kilo
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75 we are not the only lesbians in
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77 Angel Tongues Hail Mary Mother o
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79 mani padme aum clouds wrap thems
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81 pustules vile bodies unclean bod
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83 Tragedia they say it is a traged
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85 social mores shift and run their
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87 HD 17 even though their words bu
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89 there are cities in our minds 21
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91 those who fear us have many name
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93 sleepless eyes reviled for our a
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95 Love is an Uprising we write wri
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97 we imagine a language invented b
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99 some of us are saints 19 or Sybi
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101 Lavender Hour in the lavender h
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103 in the lavender hour extraterre
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105 the lavender hour is not marked
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107 Carnivale 1 we sing sliding alo
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109 the Queen of Hearts the Queen o
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111 join the throng beating out the
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115 Music for lesbian mouths oooooo
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119 Almanac of the Dead 1 for Primr
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121 ix I go to breakfast and mentio
Page 133 and 134: 123 The drive to LA is too long. I
Page 135 and 136: 125 Graveside Meditation We, the mo
Page 137 and 138: 127 In my mind then comes a phrase
Page 139 and 140: 129 But then the war came. You had
Page 141 and 142: 131 You told me later that you spen
Page 143 and 144: 133 As the cold wraps itself around
Page 145 and 146: 135 Memory is trampled by daily lif
Page 147 and 148: 137 The Dead i The dead press their
Page 149 and 150: 139 I return to my daughters in the
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Page 156 and 157: 146 the coffin missing but still th
Page 158 and 159: 148 unlike the others, she talks tu
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Page 162 and 163: 152 Mementos for Sindhu, she says,
Page 164 and 165: 154 but not the silence between us.
Page 166 and 167: 156 Is this what freedom amounts to
Page 168 and 169: 158 they say, but not back. The ris
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Page 172 and 173: 162 o The woman holds out her hands
Page 174 and 175: 164 o This headache is like a strin
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Page 178 and 179: 168 Happiness is a dry fart, says t
Page 180 and 181: 170 into the couch. It’s Scintl w
Page 182 and 183: 172 The buffalo is in camouflage, w
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Page 188 and 189: 178 entwined double snakes, spirals
Page 190 and 191: 180 Poorvashada and Uttarshada— f
Page 192 and 193: 182 Mourning my father, the stillne
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Page 198 and 199: 188 I can haggle too, but not here.
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Page 204 and 205: 194 Second Sutra 26 May 2004, Delhi
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Page 208 and 209: 198 o The women of Jagori share lun
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Page 218 and 219: 208 third Sutra 28 Dec 2004, Bingil
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Page 224 and 225: 214 Gravity’s rainbow could not f
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Page 228 and 229: 218 It helped her unravel the birds
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Page 232 and 233: 222 The Day of My Crucifixion for a
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224 perform as if in a wake ghostli
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Eye of a Needle 226 Mid-twentieth c
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228 o 1980s In the camp I live unde
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230 Once long ago they said I was a
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232 women falling, falling … We a
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235 Bibliography Abbot, Sidney and
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237 —. 1989. Medieval Woman’s M
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239 —. 1990. Lecture, UCLA, May 5
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241 Jay, Karla. 1999. Tales of the
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243 Radicalesbians. 1970. “The Wo
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245 Undset, Sigrid. 1951/1980. Kris
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247 Acknowledgements Some of the po
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