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THE <strong>ETHICAL</strong> SLUT<br />
I notice that jealousy comes and goes, depending on how good I feel<br />
about myself. When I'm not taking care of getting what I want, it's<br />
easy to get jealous and think that someone else is getting what I am<br />
not. I need to remember that it's my job to get my needs met. I feel the<br />
jealousy, but I'm not willing to act on it, so it mostly goes away.<br />
Once you have made a commitment to refuse to act on your jealousy,<br />
you become free to start reducing the amount of power you let<br />
your jealousy have over you. One way to do this is simply by allowing<br />
yourself to feel it. Just feel it. It will hurt, and you will feel frightened<br />
and confused, but if you sit still and listen to yourself with compassion<br />
and support for the scared child inside, the first thing you will learn<br />
is that the experience of jealousy is survivable. You have the strength<br />
to get through it.<br />
A large part of our difficulties with jealousy comes from our attempts<br />
to avoid feeling a scary or painful emotion. Perhaps long ago when we<br />
were children, truly powerless in the world and with a very limited set<br />
of tools for dealing with our emotions, we felt something scary and<br />
told ourselves, "I will never feel this again, it's too awful, I'll die, I'll<br />
kill myself." So we stick the feeling, and the event that inspired it, into<br />
something like a pot, and put the lid on good and tight. As the years<br />
go by, whenever something comes along that reminds us of what's in<br />
the pot, that rattles the lid a little, we push down on that lid. "Gatta<br />
keep the lid on that pot," we tell ourselves-we may not even remember<br />
why. And the pressure builds and builds, not so much from what's in<br />
the pot as from our frantic struggles to keep the lid on.<br />
When we grow up and we need to take the lid off so that we can<br />
deal with our emotional reality as an adult, it can feel really scary.<br />
But surprisingly, often when we actually look at what's in our pot and<br />
feel it, it's much more manageable than we had feared. You can indeed<br />
open your pots, look at what's bubbling away in there, and then put<br />
the lid back on. Your old defenses will continue to work just fine when<br />
you want them to.<br />
We have heard sluts accuse each other of being jealous as if it were a<br />
crime: "See? Look at you! You're jealous, aren't you? Don't try to deny<br />
it!" It is particularly important that you own your jealousy, to yourself<br />
and to your intimates. If you try to pretend that you are not iealous<br />
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