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FEBRUARY 23<br />
PREPARING FOR CONFESSION<br />
“Yea, O Lord and King, grant me to see my own faults and not to judge my<br />
brother. For You are blessed unto the ages of ages. Amen.” (Prayer of St.<br />
Ephrem, part 3)<br />
As I prepare to go to confession this week, for a thorough “house-cleaning,”<br />
I ask for a specific kind of “vision”; to “see” my own faults. Blocking my<br />
vision are various distractions, one of which is “judging my brother.” But<br />
this isn’t the only distraction. I may also be distracted by secondary or<br />
external matters, which turn my confession into a sort of shopping list of<br />
this and that, which never seems to change every time I go to confession.<br />
I ask for God’s help to help me “see” the major issues buried deep and<br />
hoarded in my heart, which are fundamentally distorting my focus.<br />
These “major” issues concern the first two commandments, of<br />
wholehearted love for God, and of love for my neighbor as I love myself<br />
(Mt 22: 36-40). Let me ask myself: 1. How, where and why have I<br />
blocked God from playing His role in my daily life? (self-reliance, fear,<br />
ego, etc.) and 2. How, where and why have I contributed to any broken<br />
relationships, with others and myself? Here I find it helpful to make a list<br />
of any resentments I might be carrying around, toward certain people,<br />
myself, institutions, and responsibilities. I also list the reasons for these<br />
resentments, like fear (of loss – like loss of finacial security, of image,<br />
of love, and so on), or self-centeredness. I take a good look at all this<br />
and shed God’s light on it, so I can hand it all over to Him, letting go of<br />
these burdens in confession. Let me let Him unburden me, because He is<br />
always ready and willing to “open to me the doors of repentance.”<br />
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