Kundalini.Tantra.by.Satyananda.Saraswati
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cycle of birth and rebirth is situated in swadhisthana chakra. And although most people<br />
confront difficulties when they're moving through the terrain of swadhisthana, if one has<br />
the grace of guru and indomitable and invincible willpower, and if he has been sincere<br />
and not hypocritical in his spiritual pursuits, if he's very clear about his goal and he<br />
understands what these purgatory experiences are, he can face the difficulties properly<br />
and overcome them.<br />
If one fluctuates even slightly, kundalini will return to mooladhara and the real<br />
awakening will be more difficult. Therefore, in the first stages of sadhana and awakening,<br />
one must have a supreme kind of vairagya (detachment). It should not be intellectual<br />
vairagya, but the outcome of a thorough analysis of the situations of life. Where is the<br />
end to the pleasures of life ? Can you ever satisfy your desires ? Even when you reach the<br />
age of 80 or 90 and your body can no longer enjoy pleasures, the mind still dwells on<br />
them constantly. You can leave all the sensual pleasures, but the taste will remain in the<br />
mind.<br />
If the sadhaka understands this truth, that desires can never be satisfied in one<br />
lifetime, or even in thousands of lifetimes, then kundalini can pass through swadhisthana<br />
safely and relatively fast, and make its way to manipura chakra. Without this<br />
understanding, swadhisthana becomes like an impenetrable iron curtain and perhaps only<br />
one in thousands can transcend it. Many people awaken kundalini quite easily, but<br />
passing the swadhisthana border is another thing; you can't get through without a visa.<br />
The sexual crisis<br />
I remember reading a book written <strong>by</strong> a wellknown swami who had difficulties<br />
getting through swadhisthana. He wrote: "I was sitting all night and nothing but sex and<br />
sensual thoughts came to my mind. And I dreamed of many women presenting<br />
themselves in their naked form, and my whole body was becoming hot and cold, hot and<br />
cold. Ultimately I got a headache, and at one point, I thought my heart would collapse.<br />
"Throughout the crisis, my guru's face used to come like a glimpse. His face was<br />
stern and expressionless, and that used to bring my temperature back to normal.<br />
However, this confrontation I was having with a powerful side of my mind continued<br />
until morning. At last, when morning came I breathed a sigh of relief. But then, when I<br />
sat for meditation in the evening, I had mixed feelings. I had fear in my mind and<br />
confidence as well.<br />
"Day in and day out the mind played its tricks on me. Then one night Parvati came to<br />
me. Parvati is the shakti of Lord Shiva, and she is the divine mother. I knew she was<br />
Parvati, but because she looked so beautiful and she was wearing almost transparent<br />
clothing, I began to desire her. Rather than remembering that she was the divine mother,<br />
my mind was more aware of the form behind the transparent apparel.