No Longer Human ( PDFDrive )

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He never had felt much affection for Tokyo and he
must have concluded that it was pointless to maintain
a house with servants just for the convenience of
a mere college student like myself. At any rate, the
house was sold before long and I moved to a gloomy
room in an old lodging house in Hongo where I was
immediately beset by financial worries.
My father had been giving me a fixed allowance
for spending money each month. It would disappear
in two or three days' time, but there had always been
cigarettes, liquor and fruit in the house, and other
things—books, stationery, and anything in the way
of clothing—could be charged at shops in the neighborhood.
As long as it was one of the shops my father
patronized it made no difference even if I left the
place without offering so much as a word of explanation.
Then suddenly I was thrown on my own in
lodgings, and had to make ends meet on the allowance
doled out each month from home. I was quite at my
wit's end. The allowance disappeared in the customary
two or three days, and I would be almost wild with
fright and despair. I sent off barrages of telegrams
begging for money of my father, my brothers and my
sisters by turns. In the wake of the telegrams went
letters giving details. (The facts as stated in the
letters were absurd fabrications without exception. I