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93animation by the district attorney in his dimly litoffice. He was a man of about forty, with an intelligentcalm about him which I am tempted to call "honestgood looks" (in contrast to my own alleged goodlooks which, even if true, certainly are tainted withlewdness). He seemed so simple and straightforwardthat I let down my guard completely. I was listlesslyrecounting my story when suddenly I was seized withanother fit of coughing. I took out my handkerchief.The blood stains caught my eye, and with ignobleopportunism I thought that this cough might alsoprove useful. I added a couple of extra, exaggeratedcoughs for good measure and, my mouth still coveredby the handkerchief, I glanced at the district attorney'sface.The next instant he asked with his quiet smile,"Was that real?"Even now the recollection makes me feel so embarrassedI can't sit still. It was worse, I am sure,even than when in high school I was plummeted intohell by that stupid Takeichi tapping me on the backand saying, "You did it on purpose." Those were thetwo great disasters in a lifetime of acting. SometimesI have even thought that I should have preferredto be sentenced to ten years imprisonmentrather than meet with such gentle contempt from thedistrict attorney.The charge against me was suspended, but this
94brought no joy. I felt utterly wretched as I sat on abench in the corridor outside the district attorney'soffice waiting for the arrival of my guarantor, Flatfish.I could see through the tall windows behind mybench the evening sky glowing in the sunset. Seagullswere flying by in a line which somehow suggestedthe curve of a woman's body.
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TRANSLATOR'SINTRODUCTION
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8rest of Asia, the Western nations
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15college days. At any rate, he is
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17suggests nothing so much as a hum
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>tMine has been a life of much sham
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23in two facing rows at table. Bein
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25everyone else was so great as to
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27As a child I had absolutely no no
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29I must avoid is becoming offensiv
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31think of any suitably clownish re
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33I used to subscribe regularly to
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35I had succeeded in appearing misc
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37expressions of genuine delight on
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THE SECONDNOTEBOOK
Page 43 and 44: 42strewn with cherry blossoms serve
Page 45 and 46: 44training period while the rest of
Page 47 and 48: 46about getting back to their lodgi
Page 49 and 50: 48without saying a word in return b
Page 51 and 52: 50The two cousins in whose house I
Page 53 and 54: 52to ascertain the feelings by whic
Page 55 and 56: 54had this mentality, after repeate
Page 57 and 58: 56no escape from it, but naturally
Page 59 and 60: 58Seven Ronin.) Instead I would spe
Page 61 and 62: 601 started, "I've been thinking I'
Page 63 and 64: 62wanted in the shortest possible t
Page 65 and 66: 64beings, to seek a mere night of r
Page 67 and 68: 66honor. Everything he said seemed
Page 69 and 70: 68attitudes in which I have gone on
Page 71 and 72: 70ality, but the comrades kept them
Page 73 and 74: 72thought it a good strategy to mak
Page 75 and 76: 74bothering to eat, she invariably
Page 77 and 78: 76disposed of them immediately to t
Page 79 and 80: 78about money. I felt, rather, as i
Page 81 and 82: 80She rambled on, but I have never
Page 83 and 84: 82I didn't meet my benefactor of th
Page 85 and 86: 84aback: Tsuneko was going to be ki
Page 87 and 88: 86first time I had ever drunk so mu
Page 89 and 90: 88The incident was treated rather p
Page 91 and 92: 90of my punishment depended solely
Page 93: 92father always called him by that
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Page 99 and 100: 99Antiques," was the only impressiv
Page 101 and 102: 101He asked, "What do you plan to d
Page 103 and 104: 103"What kind of problems?" I reall
Page 105 and 106: 105 f^CtSK-S W ;yi mbottom. It was
Page 107 and 108: 107have been a twisted form of my w
Page 109 and 110: 109busily stitching and pounding st
Page 111 and 112: over it taught me a lesson in the p
Page 113 and 114: 113I led for the first time the lif
Page 115 and 116: 115cartoons you're always drawing f
Page 117 and 118: 117I was frightened even by God. I
Page 119 and 120: 119might on the surface seem striki
Page 121 and 122: 121become. Or, as Shigeko had it, I
Page 123 and 124: 123Sometimes I spent the night out.
Page 125 and 126: 125and suchlike things, but the obj
Page 127 and 128: 127sacks of rice are wasted in one
Page 129 and 130: 129Better be merry with the fruitfu
Page 131 and 132: 131"There's no doubt about it. I'll
Page 133 and 134: 133staggering—so far surpassing w
Page 135 and 136: 5 &lloriki and myself.Despising eac
Page 137 and 138: 139I answered nonchalantly, "It doe
Page 139 and 140: 141We began a guessing game of trag
Page 141 and 142: 143"Aren't there bees—or is it an
Page 143 and 144: 145Imagine saying that the law was
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147letters r-i-c-e. Rice. I'm hungr
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149lost all confidence in myself, d
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151afraid, no matter how much I tri
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153defences should have yielded onl
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155The madam of the bar in Kyobashi
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157stead I would rush out into the
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159That was all. Without saying a w
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161forget how weak my body was, and
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163matter how painful it is. That's
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165face, "I hear you've coughed blo
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167tics claim the same thing. What
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169a curious manner by the old serv
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EPILOGUE
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174first beginning to rampage in th
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176mersed in reading the notebooks
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