MINDSET-MASTERS

Mindset Masters had initially lost and gained even more. What did I think I was doing? Up and down and up and down, this was my weight. Herbalife, Weight Watchers, calorie counting, binge eating, sneak eating, round and round I’d go. Food was my drug. In my brain, I knew I wanted to change, to be pretty, to date, to fit in. I made Change my destiny, and it still is. Even as I struggled with my weight, I knew deep in my heart and in my mind there was another life just waiting on me to live it. I wanted to be different, and I tried hard in so many ways. Every decision you make, every day of your life is another agreement with yourself, for your family and your higher power to be better, to learn more, and finally to be healthy. Because this cannot be it, this is not all there is. Coming from corn fed Midwestern folk did not mean I was doomed. I made up my mind at the ripe age of 38, I had had enough. I did not want to pass my unhealthy habits to my young son. I wanted to run and walk and play basketball with him. My heart ached to be a fully participating parent. I wanted to be able to take him swimming at the public pool and not give excuses as to why we couldn’t. To be physically and emotionally all there for my child, and my family. This was it, do or die for me. Quite literally, the Dr.’s told me so. Dying was on the table and I didn’t want any of it. I had to make a change or face the consequences…death. I had heard of people having procedures to help them lose weight. I also heard the stories of things going terribly wrong. I am in no way about to discredit any weight loss approach. I want to make it clear that this is what worked for me as a person who had developed morbid obesity after a lifetime of dieting, struggling, and physical and emotional pain. 32